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You ready?

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No, just...
Yeah, just ignore the microphone.

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Yeah, just act as if it's not there.
Sing as if it's not there.

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- Ready for them?
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Let's go.

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/f you're here,
then you already know who she is.

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And that is one of the most important
musical figures of our time.

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Lydia ta'r is many things.

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A piano performance graduate
at the Curtis institute,

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phi beta kappa from Harvard

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she got her phd in musicology
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specializing in the indigenous music

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of the ucayali valley in eastern Peru,

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where she spent five years
among the ship/bo-kon/bo people.

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As a conductor, tar began her career
with the c/e veland orchestra,

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one of the so-called ”big five. ”

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A string of important posts fol/o wed,

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including the Philadelphia orchestra,

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the Chicago symphony orchestra,

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the Boston symphony orchestra,

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until she at last arrived here
at our own New York philharmonic.

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With the latter,

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she organized the high way ten
refugee concerts in zaatarr;

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which were attended by over 75, 000 people.

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She's become particularly well known
for commissioning contemporary work

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from, among others,
Jennifer higdon, caro/me Shaw,

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Julia wolfe and hrldur gudnado'ttir.

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And she's made a point
ofprogramm/ng their works

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alongside composers of the canon.

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She's been quoted as saying,

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”these composers
are having a conversation.

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And it may not always be so polite. ”

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Lydia ta'r has also written music
for the stage and screen.

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She is, in fact, one
of only 75 so-called ego 7's,

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meaning those who have won
all four major entertainment awards:

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An Emmy, a grammy,

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an Oscar and a Tony

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it is, as you can imagine,
an extremely short and shimmering list

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that includes Richard Rodgers,
a udre y hepburn, Andrew Lloyd Webber

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and, of course, Mel Brooks.

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In 2010,
with the support of eliot kaplan,

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she founded
the accordion conducting fellowship,

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which fosters entrepreneurship
and performance opportunities

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for female conductors,

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allowing them residencies
with major orchestras around the world.

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In 2013, Berlin elected tar
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in succession to andris Davis.

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And she's remained there ever since.

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Like her mentor, Leonard Bernstein,
tar has a particular affinity for mahler,

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whose nine symphonies she recorded
during her big five stints.

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However, she never managed
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with a single orchestra until now.

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Under her direction, Berlin has recorded
eight of the mahler symphonies,

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saving the big one, symphony no. 5,
for last.

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Due to the pandemic, that performance,

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which was scheduled for last year,
had to be canceled.

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But I'm told that next month, she'll make
a live recording of mahler's fifth,

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which will complete the cycle,
and will be issued in a box set

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by deutsche grammophon
just in time for mahler's birthday.

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As if that's not enough,
her new book, tar on tar,

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will be published
by nan talese's imprint at doubleday,

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just in time for Christmas,
a perfect stocking stuffer,

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especially if you have
a very large stocking.

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All of us at the new yorker
welcome you.

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Thank you for joining us, maestro.

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Thank you, Adam. Thank you.

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Lydia, I couldn't...

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I couldn't help but see you flinch just
a little bit as I was reading your bio.

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Was it because I forgot
some other amazing achievement?

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Or do you have
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about the incredibly varied things
that you've accomplished?

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Well, in today's world, "varied,"
it's a dirty word.

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I mean, our era is one of specialists.

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And if you're trying to do more than
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- Every artist gets typecast.
- Oh, yes. Aggressively so.

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Do you think there'll be a moment, though,
when the classical music community, uh,

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decides not to use, uh, sexual
distinctions to differentiate artists?

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I'm probably the wrong person to ask
since I don't read reviews.

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- Never, really?
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But it is odd, I think,
that anyone ever felt compelled

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to substitute "maestro" with "maestra."

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I mean, we don't call, uh,
women astronauts "astronettes.“

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But as to the question
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I really have nothing to complain about.

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Nor, for that matter, should marin alsop,
joann falletta, uh,

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Laurence equilbey, Nathalie stutzmann.

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I mean, there are so many incredible women
who came before us.

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You know, women who did the real lifting.

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That's fascinating.
Can you... who, for instance?

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Uh, okay, sure.
Uh, first and foremost, Nadia boulanger.

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I mean, that would be
the, uh, happy example.

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Uh, the sad one would be antonia brico,

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who by all accounts
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but was ghettoized
into the non-glamorous status

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of a "guest conductor"
and essentially treated as a dog act.

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A dog, um... she never got the chance
to lead a major orchestra?

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Well, yes. Yes, she did, uh, conduct

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the, uh, Berlin philharmonic
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but, again, only as a guest conductor.

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You know, I mean, at that time,
it was... it was all gender spectacle.

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But fortunately, times change,
and the pauline conversion is,

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if not complete,
then it's evolving nicely.

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No less, um, having fallen off its horse,
um...

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Lydia, could we talk a little bit
about, uh, translation?

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I think there's still people
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as a kind of human metronome.

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Well, yeah, that's partly true.

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- Yeah, but it's...
- But keeping time, it's no small thing.

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- But I suspect there's a lot more to it.
- Yeah, I would hope so, yes.

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- But time is the thing.
- Ah.

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Time is the essential piece
of, uh, interpretation.

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You cannot start without me.

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See, I start the clock.

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Now, my left hand shapes,
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marks time and moves it fonnard.

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However, unlike a clock,
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Stops.

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Which means that time stops.

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Now, the illusion is that, like you,

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I'm responding to the orchestra
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making the decision about the right moment
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or throw time out the window altogether.

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The reality is that
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- I know precisely what time it is...
- Really?

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And the exact moment that you and I
will arrive at our destination together.

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You know, the only real, uh,
discovery for me is in rehearsal.

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It's never, never in performance.

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Hard question, I know,
but if you could define one thing

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that Bernstein gave you, what would it be?

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K a vanah.

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Yeah, it's the Hebrew word
for attention to meaning or intent.

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What are the composer's priorities,
and what are yours,

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and how do they complement one another?

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Right, kavanah.

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I think that's a word that will have
slightly different meaning

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for many in our audience.

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Well, yes, I imagine so.

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Am I right in thinking
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uh, an onstage presence
in classical music?

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No, that's right.

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I think I read some place that it actually
was the first violin who was responsible.

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Yes, the first violinist, whether they had
any interest or skill in it or not.

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When did that change,
and who changed it?

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With the French composer,
Jean-Baptiste lully,

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who reportedly, uh, used
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to pound the tempi into the floor.

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It's not something I imagine
the players particularly, uh, appreciated.

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Uh, anyway, that technique ended
during a performance

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when lully accidentally stabbed himself
in the foot with the thing and died.

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Yeah, of gangrene.

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But anyway...

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Anyway, but the conductor

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really becomes essential
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And once again, we go back to Beethoven.

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Now, that doesn't start
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The downbeat... it's silent, right?

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So someone had to start that clock.

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Someone had to, uh,
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and say, "follow me," you know?

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And when that someone was Lenny,

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the orchestra was led on the most
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'Cause he knew the music,
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as well or better than anyone.

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And he would often play with the form.

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'Cause he wanted an orchestra
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let alone heard or performed,
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So he would do radical things,

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like disregarding the tempo primo
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even though it had no such marking.

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Was he over-egging it?

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Oh, no, no, no. Not at all.

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He celebrated the joy of his discovery.

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You just told us a moment ago that
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When will that process
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We start on Monday.

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- Immediately?
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With this one, it really is about

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trying to read the tea leaves
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I mean, we know a great deal about this
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You know, he was so inspired
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that for years,
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But all of this changes with the five.

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The five is a mystery.

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And the only clue he leaves us
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Yes, the dedication to his new wife, Alma.

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So if you're gonna partner with mahler
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the first thing you must do
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that very complex marriage.

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And would you say you have a different
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than Bernstein did?

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You mentioned my ethnographic fieldwork
in the Amazon.

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Well, Adam, the shipibo-konibo
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if the singer is there, right?

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On the same side of the spirit
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And in that way,
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It's the flip sides
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That definition of fidelity
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But Lenny, he believed in teshuvah.

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The talmudic power to reach back into time

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and transform the, uh, significance
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So when he played the "adagietto"
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it ran for 12 minutes.

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- He treated it as a mass.
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And you know,
if you listen to a recording of it,

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you will no doubt feel the tragedy
and the pathos.

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And of course, that, uh, interpretation
was very true for mahler later in life,

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after the professional bottom dropped out
and Alma had left him for gropius.

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But, as I said before,
we are dealing with time.

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And this piece was not born
into aching tragedy.

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It was born into young love.

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And so you chose...

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- Love.
- Aw.

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Right, but precisely how long?

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Seven minutes.

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I was so taken
by what you said to Adam

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about, um, interpretation
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And that you chose love.

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And I know it's said that you should
leave the tears for the audience, but...

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Do you ever find yourself
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- when you're up there at the podium?
- Yes.

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Yes, that does happen.

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There's an expectation-reward cycle
with some works,

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and there's spots in them
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that when I'm conducting,
it's not that I'm rushing exactly,

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but I don't know,
I just can't wait to get to that spot.

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And yeah, it does it.
It does it every time.

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- So it's physical as well as emotional.
- Mmm.

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God, it must take hours
to come back down to earth.

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You say things after others remember,
but you won't.

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And sleep, it's impossible.

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It's like my freshman year at Smith.

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00:18:08,045 --> 00:18:09,964
Which piece does that to you?

238
00:18:10,047 --> 00:18:11,090
Oh, I saw you!

239
00:18:11,173 --> 00:18:14,844
I saw you conduct, uh, the rite of spring
at the met last year.

240
00:18:14,927 --> 00:18:17,388
It was so powerful.

241
00:18:17,471 --> 00:18:19,307
Thank you. Thank you.

242
00:18:19,390 --> 00:18:23,436
It's... it's the 11 pistol shots...
It's a prime number...

243
00:18:23,519 --> 00:18:26,230
That strike you as both victim
and perpetrator.

244
00:18:26,314 --> 00:18:29,859
You know, it's not until I conducted it
that I became convinced

245
00:18:29,942 --> 00:18:31,485
we're all capable of murder.

246
00:18:31,569 --> 00:18:34,405
That is a fantastic handbag, by the way.

247
00:18:34,488 --> 00:18:36,532
Thank you. I'm glad you like it.

248
00:18:36,616 --> 00:18:38,826
Oh, I do. I do.

249
00:18:38,909 --> 00:18:41,996
Sorry. Your lunch with Mr. Kaplan.
His driver is waiting.

250
00:18:42,079 --> 00:18:44,707
All right.
I'm sorry, I've forgotten your name.

251
00:18:44,790 --> 00:18:46,459
- Whitney. Whitney Reese.
- Whitney.

252
00:18:46,542 --> 00:18:47,877
Whitney, of course.

253
00:18:47,960 --> 00:18:50,504
I'm so sorry, and unfortunately
I've left things a bit late

254
00:18:50,588 --> 00:18:54,133
- and there's something I can't get out of.
- I understand. Can I text you?

255
00:19:14,737 --> 00:19:16,238
It's perfect, Aldo.

256
00:19:19,617 --> 00:19:21,952
Oh. I was hoping we could celebrate.

257
00:19:22,036 --> 00:19:24,038
No. So was I.

258
00:19:24,121 --> 00:19:25,623
I've got a class at Juilliard.

259
00:19:25,706 --> 00:19:26,707
Oh, good.

260
00:19:26,791 --> 00:19:28,125
I promised Ben.

261
00:19:28,668 --> 00:19:31,796
I'm sure you'll have a few elbowing
for an accordion slot.

262
00:19:33,297 --> 00:19:35,675
We should open up the fellowship.

263
00:19:35,758 --> 00:19:38,052
- What, expand our numbers?
- No, our sex.

264
00:19:38,135 --> 00:19:41,305
I mean, it feels quaint
to keep things single-gender.

265
00:19:41,389 --> 00:19:42,640
We've made our point.

266
00:19:42,723 --> 00:19:46,310
And honestly, we've had no real trouble
successfully placing any of them.

267
00:19:46,394 --> 00:19:47,728
Except one.

268
00:19:48,312 --> 00:19:49,480
Oh, well.

269
00:19:50,356 --> 00:19:51,899
She had issues.

270
00:19:51,982 --> 00:19:53,275
So I've heard.

271
00:19:53,984 --> 00:19:57,196
The topic comes up
in every citibank meeting with her father.

272
00:19:58,489 --> 00:19:59,824
I'm sorry about that.

273
00:19:59,907 --> 00:20:01,242
It's fine.

274
00:20:01,325 --> 00:20:03,160
It's nothing I can't handle.

275
00:20:04,245 --> 00:20:08,332
So, you want to torpedo
accordion's founding principle?

276
00:20:08,958 --> 00:20:10,459
We'd likely lose donors.

277
00:20:11,252 --> 00:20:13,295
Yeah, I suppose that's true.

278
00:20:13,379 --> 00:20:15,673
Maybe it's something
we revisit down the line.

279
00:20:15,756 --> 00:20:17,466
Sure.

280
00:20:17,550 --> 00:20:19,927
Bryant park's locked for the 25th.

281
00:20:20,010 --> 00:20:21,804
Nan asked me to help fill the place,

282
00:20:21,887 --> 00:20:25,433
so the kaplan fund is gonna buy
some radio and outdoor advertising.

283
00:20:26,100 --> 00:20:27,768
And claqueurs.

284
00:20:28,269 --> 00:20:30,938
It's too big, eliot.
She should have booked the strand.

285
00:20:31,021 --> 00:20:33,941
Relax. It'll be great.

286
00:20:35,025 --> 00:20:36,902
And it almost falls on your birthday.

287
00:20:39,280 --> 00:20:43,033
I was sorry you weren't able to make it
to my mahler 3 in London.

288
00:20:44,660 --> 00:20:45,786
Me too.

289
00:20:47,788 --> 00:20:49,582
Uh, Petra had a school thing.

290
00:20:50,082 --> 00:20:54,503
Uh, and I promised Sharon I'd be there.

291
00:20:55,463 --> 00:20:56,589
Of course.

292
00:20:57,923 --> 00:21:00,092
I was just hoping for your honest opinion.

293
00:21:01,010 --> 00:21:04,013
My player rating sheets
were off the charts.

294
00:21:04,096 --> 00:21:05,639
Those are confidential, eliot.

295
00:21:05,723 --> 00:21:07,933
Well, the principal oboist is a big fan.

296
00:21:09,310 --> 00:21:12,563
On the way back, I was listening to yours
with the Israeli Phil.

297
00:21:12,646 --> 00:21:15,191
And I was struck by what you managed
to pull from the strings

298
00:21:15,274 --> 00:21:17,151
in the last movement.

299
00:21:17,234 --> 00:21:19,987
I mean, how did you get them there?

300
00:21:20,738 --> 00:21:23,657
Was it the hall? Was it the players?

301
00:21:23,741 --> 00:21:26,452
The players weren't very obliging.

302
00:21:26,535 --> 00:21:29,580
The principal violinist came up to me
after the first rehearsal

303
00:21:29,663 --> 00:21:31,999
- and asked if I was a Jew.
- What?

304
00:21:32,082 --> 00:21:34,210
It seemed to him unusual,
if not suspicious,

305
00:21:34,293 --> 00:21:38,047
that a non-Jew would be interested
in conducting Jewish music.

306
00:21:38,130 --> 00:21:40,800
Felt like Max bruch.

307
00:21:40,883 --> 00:21:42,843
Well, big Jew that I am,

308
00:21:42,927 --> 00:21:46,055
the kaplan fund has, uh, committed
a sizable amount to them

309
00:21:46,138 --> 00:21:48,140
- for a klezmer commission.
- Mm-hmm.

310
00:21:48,224 --> 00:21:50,309
Uh, maybe they'll invite me
to guest conduct.

311
00:21:50,392 --> 00:21:52,102
Well, they'd be lucky to have you.

312
00:21:52,186 --> 00:21:55,272
Oh, please. I know my place.

313
00:21:56,232 --> 00:21:58,359
Money can't always buy you everything.

314
00:21:59,902 --> 00:22:01,612
You don't really believe that.

315
00:22:02,238 --> 00:22:05,699
I'll have you know I tried to bribe
Francesca to let me look at your notation.

316
00:22:05,783 --> 00:22:07,326
She sent me packing.

317
00:22:07,409 --> 00:22:08,409
Good girl.

318
00:22:09,411 --> 00:22:11,747
That gentleman sitting over there
with the gnome

319
00:22:11,831 --> 00:22:14,124
is urgently focused on our table.

320
00:22:14,208 --> 00:22:17,044
At first, I thought he was looking at me,

321
00:22:17,127 --> 00:22:19,463
but I think he's got his eye on you.

322
00:22:19,547 --> 00:22:21,465
Please try and ignore him.

323
00:22:21,549 --> 00:22:25,052
I can excuse myself and go wash my hands
if you'd like to be alone.

324
00:22:25,135 --> 00:22:26,929
And I would never forgive you.

325
00:22:28,222 --> 00:22:30,349
The last thing I need
is to be buttonholed in here

326
00:22:30,432 --> 00:22:32,184
by someone exactly like me.

327
00:22:34,019 --> 00:22:35,579
Uh, what time are you ieavin' tomorrow?

328
00:22:36,856 --> 00:22:38,899
Francesca's looking into flights.

329
00:22:38,983 --> 00:22:41,652
Well, call her off. Leave when you like.

330
00:22:42,820 --> 00:22:44,446
You don't have to do that.

331
00:22:44,530 --> 00:22:47,074
My motives are not entirely altruistic.

332
00:22:47,950 --> 00:22:50,619
Just one peek.
One peek at your performing score.

333
00:22:53,497 --> 00:22:54,582
Fine.

334
00:22:54,665 --> 00:22:57,960
- Would 5:15 be okay?
- Sure.

335
00:22:58,043 --> 00:23:01,005
Okay, I mean, I do...
I have to get turned around fast.

336
00:23:01,088 --> 00:23:02,923
We're filling a vacant position.

337
00:23:03,507 --> 00:23:05,342
Please tell me it's Sebastian.

338
00:23:05,426 --> 00:23:09,013
Now, be fair, eliot.
Sebastian has decent technique.

339
00:23:09,096 --> 00:23:10,556
He has Baton.

340
00:23:10,639 --> 00:23:12,266
A month ago, I dropped into bunkamura

341
00:23:12,349 --> 00:23:14,935
to watch the touring machine
trot out chopin 1.

342
00:23:16,020 --> 00:23:18,731
Ol' Sebastian really is Mr. Tempo rubato.

343
00:23:18,814 --> 00:23:20,941
Robot-o is more like it.

344
00:23:21,025 --> 00:23:24,278
- Why do you keep him on?
- Oh, he's andris's man, you know that.

345
00:23:24,361 --> 00:23:25,905
Exactly. You inherited that decision.

346
00:23:25,988 --> 00:23:28,157
Seven years is a long time
to pretend you respect it.

347
00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:30,492
They have different labor contracts
over there.

348
00:23:33,078 --> 00:23:35,706
He's a... he's a strange guy.

349
00:23:35,789 --> 00:23:37,875
- Who? Andris?
- No, Sebastian.

350
00:23:38,751 --> 00:23:41,337
He has, um, fetishes.

351
00:23:41,921 --> 00:23:43,797
Fetishes? Like what?

352
00:23:43,881 --> 00:23:46,717
Nostalgia for pre-war
kalmus miniature scores,

353
00:23:46,800 --> 00:23:51,263
dead-stock pencils he's seen
Von karajan hold in photographs.

354
00:23:51,347 --> 00:23:53,015
You know, that sort of thing.

355
00:23:53,098 --> 00:23:55,225
That's just sad.

356
00:23:59,897 --> 00:24:01,774
Yeah, but you're not wrong.

357
00:24:02,608 --> 00:24:05,069
I am gonna have to rotate him
at some point.

358
00:24:07,821 --> 00:24:09,114
For who?

359
00:24:14,578 --> 00:24:17,748
What love teaches me.
That string notation.

360
00:24:19,500 --> 00:24:21,502
Mahler gives it to you himself.

361
00:24:24,338 --> 00:24:25,172
Come on.

362
00:24:25,255 --> 00:24:29,051
Trust me, you do not wanna go to school
on someone else's red and blue pencil.

363
00:24:29,760 --> 00:24:31,136
Least of all, mine.

364
00:24:31,220 --> 00:24:32,429
Oh, but I do.

365
00:24:32,513 --> 00:24:35,265
- All right. Will you quit pestering me?
- Yes.

366
00:24:36,767 --> 00:24:38,018
Free bowing.

367
00:24:40,020 --> 00:24:42,481
It's not pretty
for an audience to look at.

368
00:24:42,564 --> 00:24:45,401
But if you can manage
to keep your players outta the weeds,

369
00:24:46,694 --> 00:24:48,445
the sound's ferocious.

370
00:24:55,577 --> 00:24:58,497
There's no glory for a robot, eliot.

371
00:25:02,751 --> 00:25:04,128
Do your own thing.

372
00:25:06,505 --> 00:25:07,506
Mmm.

373
00:25:27,067 --> 00:25:28,777
All right, um,

374
00:25:29,486 --> 00:25:31,989
let's stop here.

375
00:25:32,072 --> 00:25:33,907
- Thank you, Max. Very good.
- Thanks.

376
00:25:33,991 --> 00:25:37,911
Um, just for my own edification,

377
00:25:39,163 --> 00:25:41,165
why did you come to Juilliard?

378
00:25:44,460 --> 00:25:46,795
Uh, it's the best music conservatory
in the country?

379
00:25:46,879 --> 00:25:49,673
People from Curtis, eastman and others
may beg to differ.

380
00:25:49,757 --> 00:25:51,967
I mean, Juilliard's a brand, right?

381
00:25:52,051 --> 00:25:55,220
So, did you come to study with a brand?

382
00:25:55,304 --> 00:25:56,305
-No, right.

383
00:25:56,388 --> 00:25:58,932
So there's a teacher or graduate
somewhere down the line

384
00:25:59,016 --> 00:26:01,143
who, you know, conjured something
in your imagination.

385
00:26:01,226 --> 00:26:03,062
Someone you aspire to be yourself.

386
00:26:03,145 --> 00:26:05,314
- Mm-hmm.
- So, who was that?

387
00:26:05,397 --> 00:26:06,648
Sarah Chang.

388
00:26:07,399 --> 00:26:08,817
- So you're a violinist?
- Yeah.

389
00:26:08,901 --> 00:26:10,319
All right, okay.

390
00:26:10,402 --> 00:26:14,782
Well, I can see why you would choose
to conduct a piece like this.

391
00:26:14,865 --> 00:26:18,535
Must be a familiar pleasure
in presiding over a bed of strings

392
00:26:18,619 --> 00:26:20,746
that behave as if they're tuning.

393
00:26:20,829 --> 00:26:26,418
Now, this piece is very au courant.

394
00:26:26,502 --> 00:26:29,880
And here, the composer tells us
to begin with

395
00:26:29,963 --> 00:26:32,216
"back-and-forth tremolo strokes
with wire brush

396
00:26:32,299 --> 00:26:35,385
and slowly sliding crotales over skin."

397
00:26:35,469 --> 00:26:38,347
Sounds like rené redzepi's
recipe for reindeer.

398
00:26:39,181 --> 00:26:42,142
It's exciting
to play new music, isn't it?

399
00:26:42,226 --> 00:26:43,560
- Yeah.
- Yeah.

400
00:26:43,644 --> 00:26:46,897
Great. All right, please,
join the other fellows.

401
00:26:48,565 --> 00:26:53,153
Now, I know you're all conducting students
of, uh, Mr. Wolfe's,

402
00:26:53,237 --> 00:26:57,324
but how many of you
are also studying composition?

403
00:26:58,117 --> 00:26:59,409
Right, what's your name?

404
00:26:59,493 --> 00:27:00,661
Olive kerr.

405
00:27:01,286 --> 00:27:02,621
All right, olive, uh,

406
00:27:03,872 --> 00:27:06,041
what do you make of
what we've just been listening to?

407
00:27:06,125 --> 00:27:11,088
It's pretty awesome.
I mean, there's incredible atonal tension.

408
00:27:11,171 --> 00:27:13,465
I agree about the tension part.

409
00:27:13,549 --> 00:27:17,469
Now, you can intellectually contemplate,
or masturbate,

410
00:27:17,553 --> 00:27:21,265
about the Felicity
of the so-called "atonal,"

411
00:27:21,348 --> 00:27:27,020
but the important question here
is what are you conducting?

412
00:27:27,104 --> 00:27:31,650
What is the effect?
What is it actually doing to me?

413
00:27:31,733 --> 00:27:37,114
Good music can be as ornate as a cathedral
or bare as a potting shed,

414
00:27:37,197 --> 00:27:41,076
so long as it allows you
to answer both those questions.

415
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:42,244
Max.

416
00:27:43,453 --> 00:27:45,038
Come on, what do you think?

417
00:27:48,750 --> 00:27:53,422
When Anna thorvaldsdottir
gave her master class,

418
00:27:53,505 --> 00:27:56,508
she said she was often influenced
by the form

419
00:27:57,342 --> 00:28:01,805
and structure of landscapes
and nature she grew up within.

420
00:28:03,098 --> 00:28:08,562
But I'm not sure she was interested per se
in describing those actual sounds.

421
00:28:08,645 --> 00:28:10,480
Very punkt k ontrapunkt

422
00:28:12,357 --> 00:28:13,609
yes.

423
00:28:13,692 --> 00:28:18,947
The intent of her composition is vague,
to say the least.

424
00:28:19,031 --> 00:28:21,867
So, if her intent is vague,

425
00:28:21,950 --> 00:28:26,580
how do you, as a conductor,
have a point of view about anything?

426
00:28:27,331 --> 00:28:31,293
Now, to be fair, I mean, there are times
when you will simply have no choice.

427
00:28:31,376 --> 00:28:33,879
And you will be made to stand
in front of an orchestra

428
00:28:33,962 --> 00:28:38,133
and pretend that there are
these invisible structures.

429
00:28:38,217 --> 00:28:42,512
But my prayer for you is that
you will be spared the embarrassment

430
00:28:42,596 --> 00:28:47,267
of standing on the podium with a 433,
trying to sell a car without an engine!

431
00:28:47,351 --> 00:28:51,605
Because now, my friends, now is the time

432
00:28:51,688 --> 00:28:56,109
to conduct music that actually
requires something of you.

433
00:28:56,193 --> 00:28:59,571
You know, music that everybody knows
but will hear differently

434
00:28:59,655 --> 00:29:02,699
when you interpret it for them.

435
00:29:02,783 --> 00:29:06,620
For instance, Max, why not a kyrie?

436
00:29:06,703 --> 00:29:10,540
You know, like, uh, something like
bach's mass in b minor.

437
00:29:11,792 --> 00:29:14,586
I'm not really into bach.

438
00:29:15,379 --> 00:29:17,756
- You're not into bach?
- Mm-mmm.

439
00:29:17,839 --> 00:29:18,924
Oh, Max.

440
00:29:20,717 --> 00:29:22,761
Have you read the schweitzer book?

441
00:29:24,596 --> 00:29:27,683
Well, you should. It's an important text.

442
00:29:28,642 --> 00:29:30,978
Now, antonia brico thought so.

443
00:29:31,061 --> 00:29:33,647
So much so, that she shipped herself
to Equatorial Africa

444
00:29:33,730 --> 00:29:36,692
and canoed up the Congo river
to track schweitzer down

445
00:29:36,775 --> 00:29:40,112
and ask him to teach her
what he knew about bach.

446
00:29:40,195 --> 00:29:43,824
I mean, somewhere I've got
a picture of her in a pith helmet.

447
00:29:43,907 --> 00:29:45,450
I mean, have you...

448
00:29:45,534 --> 00:29:49,246
Have you ever played
or conducted bach?

449
00:29:50,163 --> 00:29:55,043
Honestly, as a bipoc, pangender person,

450
00:29:55,127 --> 00:30:00,007
I would say bach's misogynistic life
makes it kind of impossible for me

451
00:30:00,090 --> 00:30:02,175
to take his music seriously.

452
00:30:04,136 --> 00:30:05,846
Come on.

453
00:30:05,929 --> 00:30:08,265
What do you mean by that?

454
00:30:09,099 --> 00:30:12,686
Well, didn't he sire, like, 20 kids?

455
00:30:12,769 --> 00:30:15,147
Yes, that's documented.

456
00:30:15,230 --> 00:30:17,816
Along with a considerable amount of music.

457
00:30:18,984 --> 00:30:20,652
But I'm sorry,

458
00:30:20,736 --> 00:30:23,530
I'm unclear as to what
his prodigious skills in the marital bed

459
00:30:23,613 --> 00:30:25,782
have to do with b minor.

460
00:30:27,117 --> 00:30:30,829
Sure. All right, whatever.
That's your choice.

461
00:30:31,330 --> 00:30:34,249
I mean, after all,
"a soul selects her own society."

462
00:30:34,333 --> 00:30:37,002
But remember,
the flip side of that selection

463
00:30:37,085 --> 00:30:39,755
closes the valves of one's attention.

464
00:30:40,380 --> 00:30:45,677
Now, of course, siloing
what is acceptable or not acceptable

465
00:30:45,761 --> 00:30:49,931
is a basic construct of many, if not most,
symphony orchestras today,

466
00:30:50,015 --> 00:30:53,810
who see it as their imperial right
to curate for the cretins.

467
00:30:53,894 --> 00:30:59,566
So, slippery as it is, there is some merit
in examining Max's allergy.

468
00:30:59,649 --> 00:31:01,401
Can classical music

469
00:31:01,485 --> 00:31:04,988
written by a bunch of straight,
austro-German, church-going white guys

470
00:31:05,072 --> 00:31:08,492
exalt us,
individually as well as collectively,

471
00:31:08,575 --> 00:31:12,162
and who, may I ask, gets to decide that?

472
00:31:13,872 --> 00:31:16,041
You know, what about Beethoven?

473
00:31:16,124 --> 00:31:17,667
You into him?

474
00:31:18,210 --> 00:31:20,712
Because for me, as a u-haul lesbian,

475
00:31:20,796 --> 00:31:24,007
I'm not too sure about old Ludwig.

476
00:31:25,050 --> 00:31:27,886
But then, I face him.

477
00:31:28,595 --> 00:31:33,100
And I find myself nose-to-nose
with his magnitude

478
00:31:33,183 --> 00:31:34,643
and inevitability.

479
00:31:37,562 --> 00:31:39,648
Come on, Max. Indulge me.

480
00:31:40,273 --> 00:31:43,026
Let's allow bach a similar gaze.

481
00:31:48,240 --> 00:31:49,241
Sit.

482
00:31:52,911 --> 00:31:54,955
Now, this is all filigree, right?

483
00:31:56,289 --> 00:31:59,042
I mean, it could be
a first-year piano student.

484
00:32:00,669 --> 00:32:04,464
J” or schroeder playing for I uc y j”

485
00:32:07,384 --> 00:32:09,177
or Glenn gould, for that matter.

486
00:32:14,391 --> 00:32:16,393
Now, it's not until it changes...

487
00:32:18,353 --> 00:32:20,730
You get inside it,
that you hear what it really is.

488
00:32:20,814 --> 00:32:22,149
It's a question.

489
00:32:25,318 --> 00:32:26,695
And an answer.

490
00:32:28,738 --> 00:32:30,866
Which begs another question.

491
00:32:33,743 --> 00:32:36,288
There's a humility in bach.

492
00:32:36,371 --> 00:32:39,040
He's not pretending
he's certain about anything.

493
00:32:40,333 --> 00:32:44,880
'Cause he knows that it's always
the question that involves the listener.

494
00:32:46,006 --> 00:32:48,633
It's never the answer, right?

495
00:32:49,217 --> 00:32:51,928
Now, the big question for you...

496
00:32:52,012 --> 00:32:54,473
Is what do you think, Max?

497
00:32:58,977 --> 00:33:02,439
You play really well.

498
00:33:03,607 --> 00:33:09,571
But nowadays, white, male, cis composers,
just not my thing.

499
00:33:09,654 --> 00:33:13,909
Don't be so eager to be offended.

500
00:33:13,992 --> 00:33:18,246
The narcissism of small differences
leads to the most boring conformity.

501
00:33:18,997 --> 00:33:20,999
I guess edgard varese is okay.

502
00:33:21,082 --> 00:33:22,667
I mean, I like arcana, anyway.

503
00:33:22,751 --> 00:33:27,464
Oh, well. Then you must be aware
that varese once famously stated

504
00:33:27,547 --> 00:33:31,468
thatjazz was "a negro product
exploited by the Jews."

505
00:33:32,802 --> 00:33:35,013
Didn't stop Jerry goldsmith
from ripping him off

506
00:33:35,096 --> 00:33:37,349
for his planet of the apes score.

507
00:33:37,432 --> 00:33:39,809
It's kind of a perfect insult,
don't you think?

508
00:33:39,893 --> 00:33:41,436
But you see,

509
00:33:41,520 --> 00:33:46,316
the problem with enrolling yourself
as an ultrasonic epistemic dissident

510
00:33:46,399 --> 00:33:50,654
is that if bach's talent can be reduced
to his gender, birth country,

511
00:33:50,737 --> 00:33:54,115
religion, sexuality and so on,
then so can yours.

512
00:33:55,909 --> 00:33:59,204
Now, someday, Max,
when you go out into the world

513
00:33:59,287 --> 00:34:02,749
and you guest conduct
for a major or minor orchestra,

514
00:34:02,832 --> 00:34:04,459
you may notice that the players

515
00:34:04,543 --> 00:34:07,629
have more than light bulbs and music
on their stands.

516
00:34:08,588 --> 00:34:11,550
They will also have been handed
rating sheets,

517
00:34:11,633 --> 00:34:14,427
the purpose of which is to rate you.

518
00:34:14,511 --> 00:34:19,099
Now, what kind of criteria would you hope
that they would use to do this?

519
00:34:19,808 --> 00:34:22,811
Your score reading and stick technique,
or something else?

520
00:34:26,189 --> 00:34:31,903
All right, everyone, using Max's criteria,
let's consider Max's thing.

521
00:34:31,987 --> 00:34:34,823
In this case, Anna thorvaldsdottir.

522
00:34:34,906 --> 00:34:38,577
Now, can we agree on two pieces
of observation?

523
00:34:38,660 --> 00:34:41,371
One, that Anna was born in Iceland.

524
00:34:41,454 --> 00:34:46,376
And two, that she is, in a Waldorf teacher
kinda way, a superhot young woman!

525
00:34:46,459 --> 00:34:47,919
Show of hands.

526
00:34:48,712 --> 00:34:52,340
All right, now let's turn our gaze
back to the piano bench up there,

527
00:34:52,424 --> 00:34:55,594
and see if we can square
how any of those things

528
00:34:55,677 --> 00:34:58,930
possibly relate to the person
we see seated before us.

529
00:35:05,145 --> 00:35:06,563
Where are you going?

530
00:35:10,400 --> 00:35:11,901
You're a fucking bitch.

531
00:35:13,069 --> 00:35:14,904
And you are a robot.

532
00:35:15,488 --> 00:35:20,201
I mean, unfortunately, the architect
of your soul appears to be social media.

533
00:35:20,952 --> 00:35:24,331
You wanna dance the mask,
you must service the composer.

534
00:35:24,414 --> 00:35:27,917
You gotta sublimate yourself, your ego
and, yes, your identity.

535
00:35:28,460 --> 00:35:30,795
You must, in fact, stand in front
of the public and god

536
00:35:30,879 --> 00:35:32,922
and obliterate yourself.

537
00:35:36,343 --> 00:35:37,552
All right.

538
00:35:37,802 --> 00:35:41,431
During the lockdown,
you did something I thought remarkable.

539
00:35:41,514 --> 00:35:43,016
You made music for free.

540
00:35:43,558 --> 00:35:48,313
Anyone at all could stream Berlin
performances without e ver paying a dime.

541
00:35:48,396 --> 00:35:53,777
Well, that was a democrat/calh/
made decision by the players.

542
00:35:53,860 --> 00:35:58,239
And though I wish
I could claim the idea was mine,

543
00:35:58,323 --> 00:36:00,825
it really did spring
from the heart of Sharon goodnow.

544
00:36:01,951 --> 00:36:04,537
Sharon is your partner.
You have a child together.

545
00:36:04,621 --> 00:36:07,624
And she's also the concert master
for Berlin.

546
00:36:07,707 --> 00:36:10,436
- Does that ever complicate things for you?
- Yes, that's right.

547
00:36:10,460 --> 00:36:12,754
Your work getting into your home
or the other way...

548
00:36:26,768 --> 00:36:30,146
Jake said he was certain
you'd be happy with the drape of the seat.

549
00:36:30,230 --> 00:36:31,398
I will be

550
00:36:31,481 --> 00:36:34,317
if I can keep the fat off
until next month.

551
00:36:34,401 --> 00:36:35,944
You never gain weight.

552
00:36:40,240 --> 00:36:42,575
Your mother texted me.

553
00:36:42,659 --> 00:36:45,120
She knows you're busy,
but is hoping to drop by.

554
00:36:46,413 --> 00:36:47,414
Next trip.

555
00:36:48,248 --> 00:36:49,916
What are you thinking for dinner?

556
00:36:50,542 --> 00:36:51,751
Uh, no.

557
00:36:51,835 --> 00:36:55,004
No, I'm gonna stay in
and put this piano to good use.

558
00:36:55,088 --> 00:36:58,717
I'm suspicious of the e natural
in the cello line.

559
00:36:58,800 --> 00:37:02,095
Doesn't it sound
like warmed-over Charles ives to you?

560
00:37:02,178 --> 00:37:03,805
Not at all.

561
00:37:03,888 --> 00:37:07,267
But don't worry, I'll call Houston.
They'll be flexible.

562
00:37:07,934 --> 00:37:10,979
You must have some new haven friends
you want to see tonight?

563
00:37:11,980 --> 00:37:13,606
No. Not really.

564
00:37:16,234 --> 00:37:19,112
Should I stop by later for notes?

565
00:37:19,195 --> 00:37:21,322
No, that won't be necessary.

566
00:37:21,406 --> 00:37:23,450
Okay.

567
00:37:26,494 --> 00:37:30,248
Oh, I... I almost forgot, but...

568
00:37:32,208 --> 00:37:34,711
This was left for you at the front desk.

569
00:37:34,794 --> 00:37:35,795
By who?

570
00:37:35,879 --> 00:37:37,255
They didn't say.

571
00:37:37,881 --> 00:37:39,299
What, no card?

572
00:37:40,925 --> 00:37:43,720
Okay, just leave it over there.
Thanks.

573
00:37:55,023 --> 00:37:56,191
Good night.

574
00:37:56,274 --> 00:37:57,358
Night.

575
00:38:05,992 --> 00:38:09,496
You are listening
to all things considered from npr news.

576
00:38:10,163 --> 00:38:11,831
All things considered is brought to you

577
00:38:11,915 --> 00:38:13,625
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578
00:38:13,708 --> 00:38:14,918
Public broadcasting.

579
00:38:15,001 --> 00:38:19,005
Leat ears. Feeding
the discerning listener since 2008.

580
00:38:19,088 --> 00:38:22,884
2008. I eat ears.
And you should too...

581
00:38:24,010 --> 00:38:26,596
And now more from npr.

582
00:38:27,305 --> 00:38:28,765
Over the next few weeks,

583
00:38:28,848 --> 00:38:31,184
you'll be hearing poems
from four finalists

584
00:38:31,267 --> 00:38:34,229
for the national youth
poet laureate award.

585
00:38:42,529 --> 00:38:44,697
When were you informed of this?

586
00:38:44,781 --> 00:38:46,491
Just this morning.

587
00:38:47,408 --> 00:38:49,661
Mr. Kaplan was very apologetic.

588
00:38:49,744 --> 00:38:52,747
I was able to get us on the 7:00 am.
You like, through Munich.

589
00:38:52,831 --> 00:38:55,917
The connection's short,
but special services are standing by.

590
00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:57,502
Where are things with dg?

591
00:38:58,586 --> 00:39:00,880
Please tell me they've finally woken up
to see the wisdom

592
00:39:00,964 --> 00:39:03,466
of honest-to-god lps for this release?

593
00:39:03,550 --> 00:39:05,009
No movement there yet.

594
00:39:05,093 --> 00:39:07,220
Have you looked at the email
I drafted for you?

595
00:39:07,303 --> 00:39:10,265
- Sent it last night.
- Well, just fonnard me their response.

596
00:39:12,475 --> 00:39:14,686
What's your take on the new yorkertalk?

597
00:39:16,521 --> 00:39:17,897
It went well, I thought.

598
00:39:17,981 --> 00:39:19,691
Oh. You're hedging.

599
00:39:20,817 --> 00:39:21,901
I was garrulous.

600
00:39:21,985 --> 00:39:23,444
No.

601
00:39:23,528 --> 00:39:25,822
No, not at all. You were fabulous.

602
00:39:25,905 --> 00:39:28,491
Francesca!

603
00:39:28,575 --> 00:39:30,910
If you have any real interest
in conducting,

604
00:39:30,994 --> 00:39:32,912
you need to be able to speak your mind.

605
00:39:32,996 --> 00:39:37,333
Okay. Perhaps you could've
made less of the relationship with...

606
00:39:37,417 --> 00:39:38,459
Lenny?

607
00:39:38,543 --> 00:39:41,921
No, I was thinking about
mahler and Alma's.

608
00:39:42,005 --> 00:39:46,050
You implied that she betrayed him.
I'm not sure I agree with that.

609
00:39:46,551 --> 00:39:47,760
Oh, really?

610
00:39:47,844 --> 00:39:51,723
Alma was a composer too.
But he insisted she stop writing music.

611
00:39:51,806 --> 00:39:53,266
He said there was only room for...

612
00:39:53,349 --> 00:39:55,768
- One asshole in the house?
- One asshole in the house. Yes.

613
00:39:55,852 --> 00:39:59,606
And she agreed to those rules.
No one made that decision for her.

614
00:39:59,689 --> 00:40:02,650
#rulesofthegame.

615
00:40:06,195 --> 00:40:08,114
Okay?

616
00:40:15,997 --> 00:40:17,206
How was your evening?

617
00:40:17,290 --> 00:40:19,000
Yeah, was uneventful.

618
00:40:19,834 --> 00:40:22,170
Are there any of Sharon's pills left?

619
00:40:22,253 --> 00:40:25,381
No, but Dr. Korovin called these in.

620
00:40:25,465 --> 00:40:27,133
Ah. Thanks.

621
00:40:35,308 --> 00:40:37,936
I received another weird email
from krista.

622
00:40:38,019 --> 00:40:39,020
Mmm?

623
00:40:39,646 --> 00:40:41,481
How should I reply?

624
00:40:41,564 --> 00:40:42,649
Don't.

625
00:40:44,943 --> 00:40:47,695
This one felt especially desperate.

626
00:42:48,941 --> 00:42:52,653
Do you have some kind of profit-sharing
deal with the utility company

627
00:42:52,737 --> 00:42:54,197
that I'm unaware of?

628
00:42:55,823 --> 00:42:57,241
The flutter's back.

629
00:42:58,076 --> 00:43:00,703
It's... it's racing.

630
00:43:01,871 --> 00:43:04,290
I can't find my metoprolol anywhere.

631
00:43:08,628 --> 00:43:09,629
Fuck.

632
00:43:21,682 --> 00:43:25,561
Uh, I found this lying loose
in the drawer.

633
00:43:27,855 --> 00:43:29,148
Is this the right one?

634
00:43:31,651 --> 00:43:32,652
Yeah.

635
00:43:38,366 --> 00:43:39,534
Thank you.

636
00:43:43,371 --> 00:43:44,872
Is that a new bag?

637
00:43:45,540 --> 00:43:47,959
Oh, it's just a gift from eliot.

638
00:43:48,042 --> 00:43:50,086
- You want it?
- No.

639
00:43:52,046 --> 00:43:53,256
Suits you.

640
00:43:55,341 --> 00:43:56,342
Let's...

641
00:43:57,343 --> 00:44:00,847
Slow this down to 60 beats a minute.

642
00:44:24,787 --> 00:44:26,831
Actually, it's 64 beats.

643
00:44:31,711 --> 00:44:34,213
Tried calling you
on your mobile last night.

644
00:44:34,797 --> 00:44:36,257
Mmm.

645
00:44:36,340 --> 00:44:38,593
And again at the hotel.

646
00:44:39,260 --> 00:44:41,053
Must've been asleep.

647
00:44:42,805 --> 00:44:44,473
You never sleep that deeply.

648
00:44:44,557 --> 00:44:46,684
Don't be a scold.

649
00:44:46,767 --> 00:44:50,188
J” feelin'a feelin'j”

650
00:44:52,064 --> 00:44:57,653
j” someth/n ' there ar'n't too much of j”

651
00:44:59,030 --> 00:45:00,990
I'm worried about Petra.

652
00:45:03,618 --> 00:45:06,454
She's starting to disappear into herself.

653
00:45:07,872 --> 00:45:09,498
Be specific.

654
00:45:12,835 --> 00:45:15,713
She keeps coming home
with bruises on her shins.

655
00:45:17,256 --> 00:45:20,384
And then when I ask her about it,
she gets quiet.

656
00:45:22,261 --> 00:45:24,555
I mean, I hope
it's just playground football

657
00:45:24,639 --> 00:45:27,934
and not some br'odeutsche thing.

658
00:45:28,017 --> 00:45:30,019
We talked about this.

659
00:45:31,896 --> 00:45:36,776
But maybe we just need to put
more effort into finding her a friend.

660
00:45:38,027 --> 00:45:39,946
Last year was really hard

661
00:45:40,029 --> 00:45:43,241
to be locked up alone
with two old ladies like us.

662
00:45:46,869 --> 00:45:49,080
She's old enough to learn piano.

663
00:45:51,666 --> 00:45:53,084
I'll teach her.

664
00:45:58,005 --> 00:45:59,006
Yeah.

665
00:46:00,299 --> 00:46:01,801
That might be good.

666
00:46:04,011 --> 00:46:05,596
How's your heart?

667
00:46:07,181 --> 00:46:08,641
Better now.

668
00:46:31,330 --> 00:46:33,749
Knock, knock. Who's there?

669
00:46:34,458 --> 00:46:35,793
Lenny?

670
00:46:37,003 --> 00:46:38,296
Walter?

671
00:46:39,088 --> 00:46:42,091
Oh, it's you, mtt.

672
00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:45,803
Why do you insist
on holding things up like that?

673
00:46:45,886 --> 00:46:51,017
Your business here is rejoicing,
not screaming like a fucking porn star.

674
00:46:51,100 --> 00:46:52,744
Ll/lichael Tilson Thomas...

675
00:47:01,777 --> 00:47:03,195
Hello, Petra.

676
00:47:05,906 --> 00:47:08,284
Why are you lurking, hmm?

677
00:47:09,535 --> 00:47:11,537
Tell me and I'll help.

678
00:47:12,455 --> 00:47:14,081
- Sharon?
- Mmm?

679
00:47:14,165 --> 00:47:16,417
Uh, I'm taking Petra to school.

680
00:47:16,500 --> 00:47:17,877
Oh, okay.

681
00:47:17,960 --> 00:47:19,545
- Come on.
- Tschtiss.

682
00:47:40,649 --> 00:47:42,693
"Who'll bear the pall?"

683
00:47:43,611 --> 00:47:45,154
"We," said the wren.

684
00:47:45,237 --> 00:47:48,282
- "Both the cock and the hen."
- "The hen."

685
00:47:48,366 --> 00:47:49,909
"I'll..."

686
00:47:49,992 --> 00:47:52,578
"We'll bear the pall."

687
00:47:52,661 --> 00:47:54,038
"And who'll sing a psalm?"

688
00:47:54,121 --> 00:47:57,458
'I, ' said the thrush
as she sat on a bush.

689
00:47:58,584 --> 00:48:00,669
'I'll sing a song."'

690
00:48:00,753 --> 00:48:02,630
"Who'll to” the bell?"

691
00:48:02,713 --> 00:48:06,258
"'I, ' said the bull, 'because I can pull.

692
00:48:06,967 --> 00:48:08,761
I'll to” the bell."'

693
00:48:08,844 --> 00:48:14,350
"All the birds of the air
fell a-sighing and a-sobbing

694
00:48:14,433 --> 00:48:20,689
when they heard the bell toll
for poor cock Robin!"

695
00:48:27,822 --> 00:48:29,448
It's gonna be okay.

696
00:48:34,662 --> 00:48:36,956
All right. Okay, which one is she?

697
00:48:37,039 --> 00:48:38,541
The red one.

698
00:48:42,211 --> 00:48:43,212
- Bye.
- Goodbye.

699
00:48:54,807 --> 00:48:56,183
Hallo, Johanna.

700
00:49:51,197 --> 00:49:52,656
Hello. Hi.

701
00:50:00,539 --> 00:50:02,166
They're all in the chamber hall?

702
00:50:02,249 --> 00:50:03,250
Yes.

703
00:50:47,211 --> 00:50:48,212
Good morning.

704
00:50:49,922 --> 00:50:52,049
Oh, I'm sorry, maestro.

705
00:50:52,132 --> 00:50:53,842
We weren't sure you were coming.

706
00:50:53,926 --> 00:50:56,762
We were told there might be
a scheduling conflict.

707
00:50:57,471 --> 00:50:59,282
Would you like me to take notes?

708
00:50:59,306 --> 00:51:02,101
No, thank you, Sebastian.
That won't be necessary.

709
00:51:02,184 --> 00:51:03,811
Do we all have our rating sheets?

710
00:51:03,894 --> 00:51:05,938
- We narrowed it down to three.
- Mm-hmm.

711
00:51:06,021 --> 00:51:08,232
So unless anyone has
other business to discuss,

712
00:51:08,315 --> 00:51:09,650
let's bring in number one.

713
00:52:27,436 --> 00:52:29,897
Goossens stands, sounds his a.

714
00:52:29,980 --> 00:52:32,858
And, of course, uh, léon was rather famous

715
00:52:32,941 --> 00:52:36,445
for his rather wide vibrato, huh?

716
00:52:37,279 --> 00:52:40,491
Beecham looks up and says,
"gentlemen, take your pick."

717
00:52:43,243 --> 00:52:44,703
How's the writing going?

718
00:52:45,287 --> 00:52:48,791
Ah, I never know how
to answer that question.

719
00:52:50,042 --> 00:52:52,503
Makes it sound like a physical act.

720
00:52:52,586 --> 00:52:54,505
Like, how's the shitting going?

721
00:52:56,423 --> 00:52:59,385
Okay. How's the thinking going?

722
00:52:59,468 --> 00:53:01,345
Yeah, not so well.

723
00:53:01,845 --> 00:53:04,473
I keep hearing something
and getting excited

724
00:53:04,556 --> 00:53:07,685
only to catch myself in pastiche.

725
00:53:09,478 --> 00:53:11,063
It's all pastiche.

726
00:53:11,939 --> 00:53:14,858
We all have the same musical grammar.

727
00:53:14,942 --> 00:53:17,444
Just look at Beethoven five.

728
00:53:17,528 --> 00:53:20,739
The third movement's theme
has the same sequence of intervals

729
00:53:20,823 --> 00:53:24,243
as the opening theme
of the final movement of Mozart forty.

730
00:53:24,326 --> 00:53:26,161
That could've been a coincidence.

731
00:53:26,245 --> 00:53:28,539
No. Not in this case.

732
00:53:28,622 --> 00:53:31,125
If you examine the sketchbooks he used,

733
00:53:31,208 --> 00:53:35,337
29 bars of Mozart's finale appear,

734
00:53:35,421 --> 00:53:37,464
copied out by Beethoven.

735
00:53:37,965 --> 00:53:41,510
Oh, my god.
I find that extremely depressing.

736
00:53:42,469 --> 00:53:45,848
I finished reading your manuscript.
It's very good, Lydia.

737
00:53:45,931 --> 00:53:48,058
One for the ages.

738
00:53:48,142 --> 00:53:51,520
And, I dare say, will be available
long after my book has been forgotten.

739
00:53:51,603 --> 00:53:53,063
Oh, yes, you're right.

740
00:53:53,147 --> 00:53:56,608
The entire first printing
will always be available.

741
00:53:56,692 --> 00:53:58,652
Too modest, as usual.

742
00:54:07,828 --> 00:54:09,288
Thank you, andris.

743
00:54:10,706 --> 00:54:12,249
I'll Cherish this.

744
00:54:12,332 --> 00:54:13,792
You may use it.

745
00:54:14,793 --> 00:54:16,795
A blurb for the covers.

746
00:54:18,088 --> 00:54:21,008
Oh, thank you.

747
00:54:21,091 --> 00:54:22,885
I'll send it to the publisher.

748
00:54:22,968 --> 00:54:24,595
Hopefully there's still time.

749
00:54:25,137 --> 00:54:27,431
I'm proud to call you my pupil,

750
00:54:27,514 --> 00:54:29,767
even though there was really
nothing I could teach you.

751
00:54:29,850 --> 00:54:31,310
Now, that's not true.

752
00:54:31,393 --> 00:54:34,396
I'd never have the position here
were it not for you.

753
00:54:34,480 --> 00:54:37,191
Then you'd be in London, New York.

754
00:54:37,274 --> 00:54:38,776
They're not Berlin.

755
00:54:40,235 --> 00:54:43,614
Besides, I'm not sure what Sharon
would do were we ever to leave.

756
00:54:43,697 --> 00:54:45,532
She's so close with her family.

757
00:54:45,616 --> 00:54:48,952
Yes. The goodnow sisters.

758
00:54:49,036 --> 00:54:51,497
I remember the elder one
being an absolute ball-breaker

759
00:54:51,580 --> 00:54:53,916
while she still held sway at dg.

760
00:54:54,708 --> 00:54:58,629
- Heike is a woman of many opinions.
- Oh.

761
00:54:58,712 --> 00:54:59,713
And that voice.

762
00:54:59,797 --> 00:55:02,591
I mean, the signal-to-noise ratio,
it's unbearable.

763
00:55:03,759 --> 00:55:07,012
I've had to bolt-hole at my old place
in town to get any writing done.

764
00:55:08,430 --> 00:55:12,142
Schopenhauer measured a man's intelligence
against his sensitivity to noise.

765
00:55:13,018 --> 00:55:18,106
Didn't he once also throw a woman down
a flight of stairs who later sued him?

766
00:55:18,190 --> 00:55:19,483
Yes.

767
00:55:19,566 --> 00:55:22,778
Although it's unclear that
this private and personal failing

768
00:55:22,861 --> 00:55:24,780
is at all relevant to his work.

769
00:55:33,121 --> 00:55:34,206
You're late.

770
00:55:36,875 --> 00:55:38,311
- Here, give me your stick.
- Thank you.

771
00:55:38,335 --> 00:55:39,335
I've got it.

772
00:59:41,912 --> 00:59:44,039
But it's also...

773
00:59:44,122 --> 00:59:48,460
It's like we're hearing it from
a very, very great distance. So it's...

774
00:59:53,381 --> 00:59:55,383
S... uh... sorry.

775
00:59:58,512 --> 01:00:03,308
Harald, I was just wondering if you might,
um, quickly rig something up for us?

776
01:00:36,883 --> 01:00:39,010
Harald.

777
01:00:39,094 --> 01:00:41,763
Uh, we'll want the same backstage setup
for the live recording.

778
01:00:41,847 --> 01:00:44,224
One, two, one.

779
01:01:12,711 --> 01:01:15,505
Looks great...
But we need to hear it.

780
01:01:15,589 --> 01:01:16,590
Okay? It's not...

781
01:01:20,177 --> 01:01:21,177
Hey.

782
01:01:49,539 --> 01:01:51,124
It's... it's much too slow.

783
01:02:00,300 --> 01:02:03,011
Mm-hmm. Okay.

784
01:02:09,809 --> 01:02:12,437
- How are things feeling up here?
- Fine, yeah.

785
01:02:12,520 --> 01:02:17,067
Yeah, actually great, but it's a shame
we don't record this one direct-to-disk.

786
01:02:17,150 --> 01:02:19,569
Oh, I know.
It's criminal, is more like it.

787
01:02:20,904 --> 01:02:22,530
Will you shoot me the mp3s?

788
01:02:22,614 --> 01:02:24,658
Yeah, sure.
But don't you want wav files?

789
01:02:24,741 --> 01:02:27,994
No, just think what people
will actually be streaming.

790
01:02:28,078 --> 01:02:30,914
- What about video?
- Yes, yes. Uh, stage left, a camera.

791
01:02:30,997 --> 01:02:32,540
- Okay.
- All right. Thanks, guys.

792
01:02:32,624 --> 01:02:34,668
- Okay. Bye. You're welcome.
- Goodbye.

793
01:02:36,544 --> 01:02:38,213
- There.
- Yeah.

794
01:02:38,296 --> 01:02:40,298
You want us
to come in stronger there?

795
01:02:40,382 --> 01:02:43,176
Here, 'cause
the reigning dynamic is forte...

796
01:02:43,260 --> 01:02:45,180
Which is not good.

797
01:02:45,470 --> 01:02:46,763
Yeah?

798
01:02:46,846 --> 01:02:49,266
Just one small thing, maestro.

799
01:02:49,349 --> 01:02:55,230
During the scherzo, um,
the clarinet solo's still a bit too loud.

800
01:02:55,313 --> 01:02:59,359
It should really be an accompanying figure
to the first violins.

801
01:03:00,318 --> 01:03:03,405
But apart from that,
I'd say we're in very good shape.

802
01:03:04,155 --> 01:03:05,532
Thank you, Sebastian.

803
01:03:06,074 --> 01:03:07,575
Thank you.

804
01:03:13,206 --> 01:03:14,916
Accurate assessment?

805
01:03:15,625 --> 01:03:17,002
I don't think so.

806
01:03:17,085 --> 01:03:19,921
The clarinet is marked piano,
and we are marked pianissimo.

807
01:03:20,005 --> 01:03:22,132
Sebastian likes to sit
in the stalls.

808
01:03:22,215 --> 01:03:25,385
But there's no problem
with the balance in the circle.

809
01:03:28,805 --> 01:03:29,973
Mm-hmm.

810
01:03:30,056 --> 01:03:32,183
Something a bit more playful.

811
01:03:32,267 --> 01:03:33,435
Mm-hmm.

812
01:03:38,023 --> 01:03:40,400
Oh, and here's something
Tanya and I did with Gustavo.

813
01:03:40,483 --> 01:03:41,568
It's very powerful.

814
01:03:41,651 --> 01:03:44,070
Yes, it's really wonderful work, uh, Karl.

815
01:03:44,154 --> 01:03:47,866
I'm just wondering if we might try
something a little less, uh, considered.

816
01:03:51,536 --> 01:03:54,622
Something simple like this? Mmm?

817
01:03:55,332 --> 01:03:57,751
I'm not sure how you would want
to light it.

818
01:03:57,834 --> 01:04:00,420
Have Harald
dim the house lights to half.

819
01:04:01,671 --> 01:04:03,757
House lights down half, please.

820
01:04:08,553 --> 01:04:11,264
We could make it work,
but we'd have to bring in some lights.

821
01:04:11,348 --> 01:04:12,849
Mm-hmm.

822
01:04:16,311 --> 01:04:18,063
If we wanna do something like this,

823
01:04:18,730 --> 01:04:21,441
uh, we'll have to bring the hot lights
next week, Tanya.

824
01:04:21,524 --> 01:04:22,901
Forget about the strobes.

825
01:04:25,487 --> 01:04:27,113
Thank you for waiting.

826
01:04:27,197 --> 01:04:28,698
Of course, maestro.

827
01:04:28,782 --> 01:04:31,743
How are we feeling
about today's rehearsal?

828
01:04:31,826 --> 01:04:37,123
Well, Sebastian thinks your solo
in the scherzo is a bit loud.

829
01:04:37,207 --> 01:04:39,459
It's possible.

830
01:04:39,542 --> 01:04:40,960
I don't agree.

831
01:04:41,044 --> 01:04:44,339
Your dynamic marking is higher
than that of the first violin.

832
01:04:44,422 --> 01:04:45,882
Yes, that's true.

833
01:04:45,965 --> 01:04:50,387
Look.
Sebastian's getting old, knut.

834
01:04:51,137 --> 01:04:52,389
I'm rotating him out.

835
01:04:53,598 --> 01:04:55,100
You're the first to know.

836
01:04:59,020 --> 01:05:00,480
Well...

837
01:05:03,108 --> 01:05:06,069
Then I will organize a caucus,
and we'll take a vote.

838
01:05:06,152 --> 01:05:07,946
No. No, you won't.

839
01:05:09,572 --> 01:05:11,574
A vote must be taken.

840
01:05:11,658 --> 01:05:14,244
I am familiar
with the electoral conclave.

841
01:05:14,327 --> 01:05:16,204
But the appointment
of the assistant conductor

842
01:05:16,287 --> 01:05:18,540
is entirely my decision.

843
01:05:18,623 --> 01:05:21,418
Yes.

844
01:05:21,501 --> 01:05:24,879
So, I can count on your support
with the others?

845
01:05:24,963 --> 01:05:28,258
Yes.

846
01:05:28,341 --> 01:05:29,342
Good.

847
01:05:29,426 --> 01:05:30,969
Who will you replace him with?

848
01:05:31,052 --> 01:05:32,846
Oh, I'm considering a few names,

849
01:05:32,929 --> 01:05:36,015
but the main thing is we proceed
with this immediately.

850
01:05:36,099 --> 01:05:37,559
I understand.

851
01:05:38,393 --> 01:05:41,020
Maestro, uh, the other players
would like to know

852
01:05:41,104 --> 01:05:42,581
if you have chosen
the companion piece.

853
01:05:42,605 --> 01:05:44,107
Ah!

854
01:06:14,554 --> 01:06:16,681
Oh. I...

855
01:06:16,764 --> 01:06:17,974
It's okay.

856
01:06:45,418 --> 01:06:50,882
J” changing major to minor j”

857
01:06:54,552 --> 01:06:56,387
Ah, I'm sorry, I knocked.

858
01:06:58,181 --> 01:07:01,017
I knew you wanted your keys back
as quickly as possible.

859
01:07:01,100 --> 01:07:02,727
Yes, thanks.

860
01:07:02,810 --> 01:07:05,271
- Did you use the company card?
- Yeah.

861
01:07:05,355 --> 01:07:08,608
We can use it for your, um...
Your taxi home.

862
01:07:13,363 --> 01:07:15,782
Yeah. It's all right. You can go.

863
01:07:17,784 --> 01:07:21,246
It wasn't just the keys.

864
01:07:24,874 --> 01:07:27,001
I need someone to hold me.

865
01:07:29,337 --> 01:07:31,506
This isn't the place, Francesca.

866
01:07:33,091 --> 01:07:36,678
You're... that's not about...

867
01:07:36,761 --> 01:07:38,137
I just...

868
01:07:39,138 --> 01:07:42,350
I just got this from someone
over at accordion.

869
01:07:54,571 --> 01:07:55,863
Oh, no.

870
01:07:58,575 --> 01:07:59,909
When did this happen?

871
01:07:59,993 --> 01:08:01,744
Day before yesterday.

872
01:08:03,705 --> 01:08:07,083
That email she sent you,
it felt like she was already...

873
01:08:07,166 --> 01:08:09,419
Delete it. And the rest.

874
01:08:10,587 --> 01:08:13,172
There's no reason to get caught up
in any intrigue.

875
01:08:19,012 --> 01:08:20,388
Now, now.

876
01:08:22,140 --> 01:08:26,311
Come on. There's nothing
we could have done to stop her.

877
01:08:27,020 --> 01:08:28,688
She wasn't one of us.

878
01:08:45,121 --> 01:08:48,708
I can't stop thinking
about our trip up the ucayali.

879
01:08:48,791 --> 01:08:49,917
Mmm.

880
01:08:50,001 --> 01:08:52,253
The three of us were so close.

881
01:08:52,337 --> 01:08:55,173
Yes, but that was before
she started making demands.

882
01:08:56,758 --> 01:09:01,429
No, there was just something
not quite right about her.

883
01:09:02,263 --> 01:09:04,265
She had so much promise.

884
01:09:04,891 --> 01:09:06,351
She did.

885
01:09:06,434 --> 01:09:07,644
Yes.

886
01:09:08,394 --> 01:09:10,396
Almost as much as you.

887
01:09:15,026 --> 01:09:17,737
Now, we have to forget about her.

888
01:09:21,741 --> 01:09:23,242
You understand?

889
01:09:28,539 --> 01:09:30,041
Right?

890
01:09:32,919 --> 01:09:34,545
-I'm sorry.

891
01:09:34,629 --> 01:09:36,464
- I know you're working.
- Oh...

892
01:09:37,465 --> 01:09:41,344
Your... your keys are on the kitchen table.

893
01:10:46,242 --> 01:10:48,161
She went straight to sleep.

894
01:10:51,080 --> 01:10:53,124
Didn't even have to hold her foot.

895
01:10:57,962 --> 01:11:01,007
And she came home
in a much better mood.

896
01:11:01,090 --> 01:11:02,675
Oh, attagirl.

897
01:11:12,935 --> 01:11:14,812
Met the new cellist today.

898
01:11:14,896 --> 01:11:17,231
Oh? What was that like?

899
01:11:17,315 --> 01:11:20,735
Olga metkina. Russian.

900
01:11:21,569 --> 01:11:22,820
Strong player.

901
01:11:23,446 --> 01:11:24,572
Good.

902
01:11:26,115 --> 01:11:28,493
Her facial posture is a bit much.

903
01:11:29,243 --> 01:11:30,661
How so?

904
01:11:30,745 --> 01:11:34,499
Her legato. Looks like she is
on the verge of climaxing.

905
01:11:38,961 --> 01:11:40,588
She's young.

906
01:11:41,339 --> 01:11:42,882
Ah, so you've met her.

907
01:11:44,967 --> 01:11:46,093
No, no.

908
01:11:47,136 --> 01:11:51,140
Francesca mentioned something.
I think she's arranging a welcome lunch.

909
01:11:54,101 --> 01:11:55,937
You may wanna hold off on that.

910
01:11:57,188 --> 01:11:59,190
Her invitation is conditional.

911
01:12:02,860 --> 01:12:04,695
You have reservations?

912
01:12:07,323 --> 01:12:08,366
Not really.

913
01:12:09,951 --> 01:12:11,869
We need to see if she fits in.

914
01:12:16,207 --> 01:12:17,792
Did you take your pill?

915
01:12:22,255 --> 01:12:24,131
Thank you for reminding me.

916
01:13:52,261 --> 01:13:54,472
How was Johanna yesterday?

917
01:13:54,555 --> 01:13:56,682
She stays away now.

918
01:13:56,766 --> 01:13:59,101
Good. You let me know if that changes.

919
01:14:02,939 --> 01:14:06,150
Petra, last night you weren't,
by any chance, in my study?

920
01:14:07,443 --> 01:14:08,527
No, Lydia.

921
01:14:08,611 --> 01:14:11,447
Because you do know you're not
supposed to be in there without me.

922
01:14:11,530 --> 01:14:12,782
I know.

923
01:14:15,117 --> 01:14:16,410
That's right.

924
01:14:50,945 --> 01:14:51,946
It's...

925
01:14:52,947 --> 01:14:55,741
It's not so simple. It's got...
It's gotta be messier.

926
01:14:57,118 --> 01:14:58,452
It's, uh...

927
01:15:10,089 --> 01:15:12,675
A lot of pressure. Okay.

928
01:15:16,595 --> 01:15:18,389
So familiar to everyone here.

929
01:15:18,472 --> 01:15:21,267
It really doesn't help you
to know this piece so well. Okay.

930
01:15:22,643 --> 01:15:23,894
Same place.

931
01:15:53,632 --> 01:15:57,386
Please, please, please, please.

932
01:15:57,470 --> 01:15:59,221
You must watch.

933
01:16:04,018 --> 01:16:05,061
Okay?

934
01:16:05,853 --> 01:16:10,232
It's gotta be like, uh, just one person
singing their heart out!

935
01:16:31,045 --> 01:16:32,046
Okay.

936
01:16:35,091 --> 01:16:36,675
Mmm. Maestro!

937
01:16:37,468 --> 01:16:39,804
What a surprise!
I was just having a spot of lunch.

938
01:16:39,887 --> 01:16:41,764
C... can I offer you anything?

939
01:16:41,847 --> 01:16:43,057
Uh, no, thank you.

940
01:16:43,140 --> 01:16:45,893
- Some tea, perhaps?
- No, thank you, Sebastian.

941
01:16:47,061 --> 01:16:51,357
You know, I forget sometimes just
how impressive your collection is here.

942
01:16:51,440 --> 01:16:53,943
Is that kalinnikov?

943
01:16:54,026 --> 01:16:55,444
- Yes.
- Ah!

944
01:16:55,528 --> 01:16:57,530
Isn't he marvelous?

945
01:16:58,614 --> 01:17:00,783
He belongs in a museum.

946
01:17:00,866 --> 01:17:05,704
I rescued him for a hundred rubles
from a Kiev street fair back in '90.

947
01:17:05,788 --> 01:17:07,957
- Ah!
- Right after the wall came down.

948
01:17:08,040 --> 01:17:10,292
Ah, that must really
have been something.

949
01:17:10,376 --> 01:17:13,420
- Oh, incredible to have lived through it.
- Mmm.

950
01:17:13,504 --> 01:17:16,590
I'd only just arrived here with andris,

951
01:17:16,674 --> 01:17:18,968
and suddenly the impossible was possible.

952
01:17:19,051 --> 01:17:20,594
Yeah.

953
01:17:22,263 --> 01:17:24,598
I'd like to talk about that.

954
01:17:24,682 --> 01:17:25,933
The reunification?

955
01:17:26,016 --> 01:17:27,935
No, no. But please, sit down.

956
01:17:28,686 --> 01:17:34,900
No, uh... about the possibility
of you fronting a subscription orchestra.

957
01:17:34,984 --> 01:17:36,777
But I already do.

958
01:17:36,861 --> 01:17:39,155
Yes, but not as kapellmeister.

959
01:17:40,906 --> 01:17:43,826
If not now, then when, Sebastian?

960
01:17:45,494 --> 01:17:47,204
You mean leave Berlin?

961
01:17:47,288 --> 01:17:49,790
Well, rotate somewhere, yes.

962
01:17:50,457 --> 01:17:52,042
But this is my home.

963
01:17:52,668 --> 01:17:55,796
Our only home is the podium.

964
01:17:55,880 --> 01:17:58,174
We all live out of a suitcase.

965
01:17:58,257 --> 01:18:00,217
You know that as well as anyone.

966
01:18:06,557 --> 01:18:08,267
Just think about it.

967
01:18:09,643 --> 01:18:10,978
Take your time.

968
01:18:12,062 --> 01:18:14,648
It's not something
we need to decide now.

969
01:18:17,610 --> 01:18:19,361
It's the girl, isn't it?

970
01:18:19,445 --> 01:18:20,779
I'm sorry, what girl?

971
01:18:21,780 --> 01:18:23,407
You're not asking.

972
01:18:23,490 --> 01:18:24,742
You're telling.

973
01:18:25,618 --> 01:18:30,039
I knew as soon as she showed up
that my days here were numbered.

974
01:18:30,122 --> 01:18:33,584
Andris told me not to worry...
But I knew.

975
01:18:34,543 --> 01:18:37,963
I'm sure I don't know
what you're talking about.

976
01:18:38,047 --> 01:18:39,506
Oh, please.

977
01:18:39,590 --> 01:18:41,425
Just because nobody dares breathe it.

978
01:18:41,508 --> 01:18:43,677
We know the things you do.

979
01:18:43,761 --> 01:18:46,555
The little favors you Grant.

980
01:18:46,639 --> 01:18:51,393
I'm... I really don't know
what to say, Sebastian.

981
01:18:51,477 --> 01:18:55,981
I mean, you of all people have
the temerity to question my integrity?

982
01:18:56,065 --> 01:18:59,068
No, no. I'm sorry, maestro.
I don't know what I'm saying.

983
01:18:59,151 --> 01:19:02,154
No, no, no. It's clear
you know exactly what you're saying.

984
01:19:02,238 --> 01:19:04,240
I mean, if that's how
you really feel about me,

985
01:19:04,323 --> 01:19:07,451
then wouldn't you say that staying
is entirely out of the question?

986
01:19:07,534 --> 01:19:09,411
No, no, please, maestro.
Please, forgive me.

987
01:19:09,495 --> 01:19:10,746
For what?

988
01:19:10,829 --> 01:19:14,500
Your obsequiousness,
your hypocrisy, your misogamy?

989
01:19:14,583 --> 01:19:15,668
I'm not a misogynist!

990
01:19:15,751 --> 01:19:19,546
Misogamy.
It's a hatred of marriage.

991
01:19:21,715 --> 01:19:24,718
Andris is still very much married.

992
01:19:25,761 --> 01:19:29,932
And you occupy an apartment
on the same floor, don't you?

993
01:19:30,724 --> 01:19:33,894
I just don't like what he's implying.

994
01:19:35,104 --> 01:19:37,898
It could lead to more
than Chinese whispers.

995
01:19:37,982 --> 01:19:39,108
I know.

996
01:19:39,942 --> 01:19:43,237
We barely survived der spiegel
when you and I came out together.

997
01:19:44,363 --> 01:19:46,657
But with Francesca,

998
01:19:47,616 --> 01:19:49,243
no one could point their finger.

999
01:19:49,743 --> 01:19:52,079
It's not like you two
are in a relationship.

1000
01:19:52,162 --> 01:19:54,665
Yeah, that's true. I just...

1001
01:19:54,748 --> 01:19:58,419
Turns my stomach to think the old robot
will be right about something.

1002
01:20:00,296 --> 01:20:04,258
He's probably already run
to andris.

1003
01:20:04,341 --> 01:20:09,346
Well, is there someone other than
Francesca you feel is more qualified?

1004
01:20:12,850 --> 01:20:15,269
There are others equal
to the task.

1005
01:20:17,980 --> 01:20:18,981
Mmm.

1006
01:20:20,065 --> 01:20:21,900
Maybe wait to decide.

1007
01:20:31,618 --> 01:20:33,537
Where are we at with dg?

1008
01:20:33,620 --> 01:20:36,623
Uh, I spoke to an assistant
in Boyd muir's office,

1009
01:20:36,707 --> 01:20:41,503
who said they weren't sure
why they decided on a digital-only set,

1010
01:20:41,587 --> 01:20:43,964
what the criteria were.

1011
01:20:44,048 --> 01:20:47,092
But I do know they just did
a full-vinyl pressing for long yu.

1012
01:20:47,176 --> 01:20:50,512
Of course they did.
The Chinese market's incredible.

1013
01:20:51,055 --> 01:20:54,683
All right. Gloves off.
I'm going straight to Lucian.

1014
01:20:54,767 --> 01:20:55,934
Maybe he needs to be reminded

1015
01:20:56,018 --> 01:20:58,145
of his annenberg inclusion initiative.

1016
01:20:59,355 --> 01:21:01,982
- You've got his contact details, right?
- Mm-hmm.

1017
01:21:02,066 --> 01:21:03,901
I'll send it to you right now.

1018
01:21:05,361 --> 01:21:08,614
My machine's misbehaving again.

1019
01:21:09,406 --> 01:21:11,325
I've already spoken to it.

1020
01:21:11,408 --> 01:21:13,077
Just... here, let me borrow yours.

1021
01:21:20,542 --> 01:21:21,627
Thank you.

1022
01:21:25,506 --> 01:21:26,882
Where's the matcha?

1023
01:22:12,010 --> 01:22:14,179
Ah, I wasn't sure where you were.

1024
01:22:14,263 --> 01:22:16,181
Was working out a kink.

1025
01:22:16,265 --> 01:22:18,350
The matcha's cold. I'll get another.

1026
01:22:18,434 --> 01:22:21,562
It's all right. I don't need it.
Let's just keep working.

1027
01:22:28,902 --> 01:22:31,196
Francesca, you did as I asked

1028
01:22:31,280 --> 01:22:34,783
and deleted any and all
correspondence with krista.

1029
01:22:34,867 --> 01:22:35,868
Correct?

1030
01:22:39,746 --> 01:22:41,206
I'm not sure.

1031
01:22:42,416 --> 01:22:45,377
I... I... i'm... I'm not sure.
I'll double-check.

1032
01:22:53,469 --> 01:22:55,721
You know, Sebastian's leaving us.

1033
01:22:56,388 --> 01:23:01,727
And I wondered if you might compile
a list of suitable replacements.

1034
01:23:06,815 --> 01:23:09,735
Ah. Of course,
fee! Free to add your own name.

1035
01:23:13,113 --> 01:23:14,323
Thank you.

1036
01:23:17,159 --> 01:23:20,704
Oh, your lunch with the new cellist.

1037
01:23:20,787 --> 01:23:21,997
Oh!

1038
01:23:22,080 --> 01:23:25,083
Meant to have you reschedule that
till after the orchestra votes.

1039
01:23:25,167 --> 01:23:26,919
I'll text her now.

1040
01:23:28,879 --> 01:23:30,672
No, wait.

1041
01:23:30,756 --> 01:23:32,925
Might as well see what she's made of.

1042
01:23:42,476 --> 01:23:43,894
This food.

1043
01:23:46,188 --> 01:23:48,899
The cucumber salad's, uh, very good.

1044
01:23:50,567 --> 01:23:53,946
It's kind of the only real option
in this place if you're vegetarian.

1045
01:23:55,030 --> 01:23:56,281
Do you eat fish?

1046
01:23:56,365 --> 01:23:57,491
Not really.

1047
01:24:01,036 --> 01:24:03,580
You know, we can go somewhere else.

1048
01:24:03,664 --> 01:24:05,624
Like the store kitchen.

1049
01:24:05,707 --> 01:24:08,794
I mean, it's kind of
a silly tradition, really,

1050
01:24:08,877 --> 01:24:13,048
that new members are brought here
to sup with the ghosts of the past.

1051
01:24:14,216 --> 01:24:18,178
I mean, at some point, everyone from...
From Napoleon to Beethoven

1052
01:24:18,262 --> 01:24:20,430
tucked in for a meal
at one of these tables.

1053
01:24:20,514 --> 01:24:22,808
Yes, and Clara zetkin.

1054
01:24:23,517 --> 01:24:25,060
I wonder which one.

1055
01:24:25,143 --> 01:24:27,854
Who's that? It's a musician?

1056
01:24:27,938 --> 01:24:32,859
No. She helped found social Democratic
women's movement in Germany.

1057
01:24:32,943 --> 01:24:38,490
And kpd until Hitler came to power
and she was exiled to Soviet union.

1058
01:24:38,991 --> 01:24:40,367
Clara zetkin?

1059
01:24:40,450 --> 01:24:41,660
Yes.

1060
01:24:41,743 --> 01:24:46,248
Every march 8th, we place flowers
at her plaque in kremlin wall necropolis.

1061
01:24:46,915 --> 01:24:48,083
Her birthday?

1062
01:24:48,584 --> 01:24:50,669
No, international women's day.

1063
01:24:54,089 --> 01:24:55,591
Are you ready, maestro?

1064
01:24:56,842 --> 01:25:00,887
- Yes, uh...
- Yes, first shashlik, then veal.

1065
01:25:01,888 --> 01:25:02,931
For you?

1066
01:25:03,682 --> 01:25:05,601
- Cucumber salad. Thank you.
- Good choice.

1067
01:25:09,021 --> 01:25:10,272
Some more bread?

1068
01:25:11,273 --> 01:25:13,233
Mmm.

1069
01:25:18,280 --> 01:25:19,740
It's good. Would you like a bite?

1070
01:25:20,449 --> 01:25:22,993
Oh, no. No. Thank you.

1071
01:25:24,620 --> 01:25:26,330
Have you lived in Berlin long?

1072
01:25:26,413 --> 01:25:28,248
No, not at all.

1073
01:25:28,332 --> 01:25:32,169
I have friends in neukolln I visit
until I know decision of orchestra.

1074
01:25:33,503 --> 01:25:35,213
Simonov will hold your place?

1075
01:25:35,297 --> 01:25:37,924
Yes, I think so. He is my uncle.

1076
01:25:40,510 --> 01:25:43,472
But my dream has always been
to play with Berlin.

1077
01:25:43,555 --> 01:25:45,057
Oh, me too.

1078
01:25:46,224 --> 01:25:47,893
There's nowhere like it.

1079
01:25:51,647 --> 01:25:54,816
I imagine rostropovich is a hero of yours?

1080
01:25:56,234 --> 01:25:58,403
Well, of course, he was great.

1081
01:25:58,487 --> 01:26:01,615
We study him at Moscow conservatory,

1082
01:26:01,698 --> 01:26:04,826
but growing up,
my favorite is Jacqueline du pré.

1083
01:26:04,910 --> 01:26:07,037
She made me want to play cello.

1084
01:26:07,913 --> 01:26:08,914
Which record was it?

1085
01:26:08,997 --> 01:26:11,541
Not record. YouTube.

1086
01:26:11,625 --> 01:26:13,335
Elgar concerto.

1087
01:26:15,462 --> 01:26:18,924
Oh, of course. With barenboim
conducting the London Phil.

1088
01:26:19,424 --> 01:26:21,677
I don't know who was conducting.

1089
01:26:22,719 --> 01:26:25,138
But she did something to me.

1090
01:26:25,222 --> 01:26:28,934
That's when I decide to learn piece
and play it with youth orchestra.

1091
01:26:29,518 --> 01:26:31,520
Quite a challenge.
How old were you?

1092
01:26:31,603 --> 01:26:32,729
Thirteen.

1093
01:26:34,690 --> 01:26:35,691
Wow.

1094
01:26:36,566 --> 01:26:38,318
I'd love to hear it.

1095
01:26:38,402 --> 01:26:41,029
They make video. I will text to you.

1096
01:29:49,301 --> 01:29:50,552
Beautiful.

1097
01:30:01,646 --> 01:30:03,899
Now, just before we break,

1098
01:30:03,982 --> 01:30:09,112
I know many of you are wondering
what the companion piece will be,

1099
01:30:09,195 --> 01:30:11,615
and I have been thinking
quite a bit about it

1100
01:30:11,698 --> 01:30:14,534
and was wondering
if we could just take an informal poll

1101
01:30:14,618 --> 01:30:17,495
about possibly pairing the five

1102
01:30:17,579 --> 01:30:19,873
with elgar's cello concerto?

1103
01:30:46,149 --> 01:30:47,651
Oh, and...

1104
01:30:48,151 --> 01:30:50,028
Given what we've all been through,

1105
01:30:50,820 --> 01:30:52,447
what we're still going through,

1106
01:30:52,530 --> 01:30:56,451
and we're finally
back together as a family,

1107
01:30:58,286 --> 01:31:02,958
I feel that maybe the soloist should come
from within our own ranks.

1108
01:31:03,041 --> 01:31:04,042
Yeah.

1109
01:31:04,125 --> 01:31:05,710
Good.

1110
01:31:06,753 --> 01:31:08,421
Good, good. Good start.

1111
01:31:08,505 --> 01:31:09,982
- One more question.
- Gos.

1112
01:31:10,006 --> 01:31:12,133
And this really
is just for you, gosia.

1113
01:31:12,217 --> 01:31:15,011
I mean... As a practical matter,

1114
01:31:15,095 --> 01:31:18,765
I mean, this would normally fall to you.

1115
01:31:18,848 --> 01:31:21,768
But given how much is gonna be
asked of you with the mahler,

1116
01:31:21,851 --> 01:31:25,855
I wondered if you'd be at all bothered
if we were to hold auditions?

1117
01:31:34,906 --> 01:31:37,993
Well, that's a bit unorthodox.

1118
01:31:41,371 --> 01:31:44,332
But, in theory, I have no objection.

1119
01:31:44,416 --> 01:31:47,669
My only hesitation will depend on
when these auditions might take place.

1120
01:31:47,752 --> 01:31:50,714
I wouldn't want them in any way
to interfere with our sectionals.

1121
01:31:50,797 --> 01:31:52,173
No, no. That's a good point.

1122
01:31:52,257 --> 01:31:54,259
I mean, it is gonna have to be...

1123
01:31:54,342 --> 01:31:56,428
It's gonna have to be a sprint. Um...

1124
01:31:58,513 --> 01:32:00,181
How about Monday?

1125
01:32:04,310 --> 01:32:05,562
All right.

1126
01:32:09,607 --> 01:32:10,608
Okay, good.

1127
01:32:10,692 --> 01:32:13,737
Knut, would you assemble
a quorum for Monday?

1128
01:32:28,752 --> 01:32:30,920
Let me see what she says.

1129
01:32:31,004 --> 01:32:32,630
Okay, I got... I gotta go.

1130
01:32:34,340 --> 01:32:35,800
Britta, hi.

1131
01:32:35,884 --> 01:32:38,303
Lydia! Just caught the end.

1132
01:32:38,386 --> 01:32:40,930
Ah! What'd you think?
How's it, uh... how's it sounding?

1133
01:32:41,014 --> 01:32:43,266
Oh, it's fantastic.

1134
01:32:43,349 --> 01:32:45,560
I can't wait until the live recording.

1135
01:32:45,643 --> 01:32:47,187
Yes, well...

1136
01:32:47,270 --> 01:32:49,439
I'll be happy when it's over.

1137
01:32:49,522 --> 01:32:50,857
It's always that way.

1138
01:32:51,649 --> 01:32:54,652
I know you're busy,
and I don't want to add to your load,

1139
01:32:54,736 --> 01:32:55,737
but...

1140
01:32:56,863 --> 01:32:58,990
Andris Davis called.

1141
01:32:59,074 --> 01:33:02,577
Look, he's upset
I'm rotating Sebastian.

1142
01:33:02,660 --> 01:33:04,788
No, no, no, no, no.
Something else.

1143
01:33:04,871 --> 01:33:07,767
But you will please let Laura know as soon
as you have chosen his replacement

1144
01:33:07,791 --> 01:33:09,209
so she can prepare a press release.

1145
01:33:09,292 --> 01:33:10,710
Yeah, of course.

1146
01:33:10,794 --> 01:33:12,587
Uh, so, what did he want?

1147
01:33:12,670 --> 01:33:14,297
To complain about the punctuality

1148
01:33:14,380 --> 01:33:17,884
of a driver he seems to believe
the board supplies him with.

1149
01:33:17,967 --> 01:33:20,011
Do you know anything about this?

1150
01:33:20,095 --> 01:33:21,221
Yes.

1151
01:33:21,763 --> 01:33:24,432
No, it's just...
It's just something I pay for.

1152
01:33:24,516 --> 01:33:26,476
Then why does he believe it's the board?

1153
01:33:27,352 --> 01:33:29,437
Because he needs to believe that.

1154
01:33:30,313 --> 01:33:32,107
He needs to b...

1155
01:33:32,190 --> 01:33:34,859
He needs to believe
he hasn't been forgotten, Britta.

1156
01:33:34,943 --> 01:33:37,654
The academy
has Von karajan's name on it,

1157
01:33:37,737 --> 01:33:40,240
and there are love shrines to abbado
all over this place.

1158
01:33:40,323 --> 01:33:42,200
But the name of Davis,

1159
01:33:42,283 --> 01:33:44,577
it's essentially nowhere to be seen.

1160
01:33:44,661 --> 01:33:46,121
All right.

1161
01:33:46,204 --> 01:33:49,791
Then perhaps Francesca
could have a word with the driver?

1162
01:33:49,874 --> 01:33:51,042
Of course.

1163
01:33:52,293 --> 01:33:54,003
One other thing.

1164
01:33:54,087 --> 01:33:55,255
It's unpleasant.

1165
01:33:56,089 --> 01:33:58,633
Oh, is it? Operational shortfall?

1166
01:33:59,551 --> 01:34:01,719
Must I take Mrs. Sewing
out to drinks again?

1167
01:34:01,803 --> 01:34:03,638
No, no, no.
Nothing to do with the orchestra.

1168
01:34:03,721 --> 01:34:06,182
Do you remember
an accordion academy fellow

1169
01:34:06,266 --> 01:34:08,017
named krista Taylor?

1170
01:34:11,563 --> 01:34:13,773
Yes. Why?

1171
01:34:13,857 --> 01:34:15,900
Apparently, she committed suicide.

1172
01:34:16,860 --> 01:34:18,653
Oh, god. Poor thing.

1173
01:34:19,737 --> 01:34:20,947
Her parents mu...

1174
01:34:22,657 --> 01:34:24,534
Wait, sorry, I'm...

1175
01:34:24,617 --> 01:34:25,827
I'm confused, Britta.

1176
01:34:25,910 --> 01:34:29,122
Why were you put in the position
to deliver this terrible news?

1177
01:34:29,205 --> 01:34:31,416
Why didn't accordion
contact me directly?

1178
01:34:31,499 --> 01:34:33,209
It's delicate, Lydia.

1179
01:34:33,293 --> 01:34:34,836
Mr. Kaplan thought it might be best

1180
01:34:34,919 --> 01:34:38,381
if you contacted a lawyer
before speaking with anyone at accordion.

1181
01:34:39,007 --> 01:34:42,177
Well, presumably,
that "anyone" includes eliot himself.

1182
01:34:44,137 --> 01:34:46,514
I'm... I'm sorry.
Why would I need to do that?

1183
01:34:47,599 --> 01:34:51,519
Apparently,
some accusations have been made.

1184
01:34:53,646 --> 01:34:55,815
Accusations?
What kind of accusations?

1185
01:34:55,899 --> 01:34:57,358
He didn't say.

1186
01:34:57,442 --> 01:34:59,736
But they were brought
to accordion's counsel.

1187
01:34:59,819 --> 01:35:02,488
Mr. Kaplan said he's certain
nothing will come of it,

1188
01:35:02,572 --> 01:35:04,699
but one can't be too careful.

1189
01:35:23,843 --> 01:35:26,304
I'm sorry about the hour.
It's Lydia tar calling.

1190
01:35:26,387 --> 01:35:28,681
I need to speak to Mr. Singer immediately.

1191
01:35:29,641 --> 01:35:31,851
Yes. Yes, it's urgent.

1192
01:36:01,881 --> 01:36:02,882
Tired?

1193
01:36:07,095 --> 01:36:08,721
Sleep's elusive.

1194
01:36:10,265 --> 01:36:12,684
I was the same before a recording date.

1195
01:36:14,644 --> 01:36:15,645
Lydia,

1196
01:36:17,313 --> 01:36:19,649
are you absolutely certain
about Sebastian?

1197
01:36:20,775 --> 01:36:21,943
Mm-hmm.

1198
01:36:22,652 --> 01:36:24,153
Who will you replace him with?

1199
01:36:25,571 --> 01:36:27,323
Possibly Andrew crust.

1200
01:36:28,783 --> 01:36:31,494
He's been assisting Otto tausk
at the vso.

1201
01:36:32,245 --> 01:36:33,413
Not the girl?

1202
01:36:43,756 --> 01:36:45,008
Andris...

1203
01:36:48,803 --> 01:36:54,559
Have you ever had an issue
with a... a student or colleague,

1204
01:36:54,642 --> 01:36:56,894
where that person may have
misinterpreted your intention?

1205
01:36:56,978 --> 01:36:59,290
- Has someone been complaining about me?
- No, of course not.

1206
01:36:59,314 --> 01:37:01,274
'Cause at this point,
they've missed their chance.

1207
01:37:01,357 --> 01:37:04,777
- I'm out of the game.
- Yes, yes, I know, I know. Course you are.

1208
01:37:05,403 --> 01:37:09,907
Thank god I was never pulled
from the podium like Jimmy levine.

1209
01:37:09,991 --> 01:37:12,493
Or hunted like Charles dutoit.

1210
01:37:13,077 --> 01:37:15,330
I take it you're asking for a reason.

1211
01:37:16,080 --> 01:37:20,168
Well, there's just been so much
of this sort of thing in the news lately.

1212
01:37:20,251 --> 01:37:23,338
Well, nowadays, to be accused
is the same as being guilty.

1213
01:37:24,339 --> 01:37:28,593
But I suppose that was also the case
all those years ago with furtw'aingler.

1214
01:37:29,469 --> 01:37:31,596
A bit with karajan too.

1215
01:37:35,224 --> 01:37:36,768
Who was the better conductor?

1216
01:37:38,603 --> 01:37:40,438
I never played under furtwangler.

1217
01:37:41,189 --> 01:37:44,150
Yeah, when I first arrived here,
the older members had...

1218
01:37:45,360 --> 01:37:47,362
Hushed opinions.

1219
01:37:47,445 --> 01:37:50,698
At the same time,
they wanted to leave that era behind.

1220
01:37:50,782 --> 01:37:52,992
- What? The war?
- No, postwar.

1221
01:37:53,076 --> 01:37:55,078
- Mmm.
- Denazification.

1222
01:37:55,578 --> 01:37:59,707
Someone pointed a finger at you,
process started all over again.

1223
01:37:59,791 --> 01:38:01,959
Furtwangler neverjoined the party.

1224
01:38:02,043 --> 01:38:05,797
Refused to give the salute
or to conduct the "Horst wessel lied."

1225
01:38:05,880 --> 01:38:08,383
Or to sign his letters, "heil Hitler"

1226
01:38:08,466 --> 01:38:10,593
even those he wrote to Hitler.

1227
01:38:11,469 --> 01:38:14,972
But he was obliged to be denazified.

1228
01:38:16,015 --> 01:38:20,937
Until then, he was semiretired,
playing corpses.

1229
01:38:22,146 --> 01:38:23,981
Playing corpses?

1230
01:38:24,607 --> 01:38:27,276
Secretly performing in a graveyard.

1231
01:38:29,570 --> 01:38:33,449
You're not equating sexual impropriety
with being an accused Nazi?

1232
01:38:34,700 --> 01:38:36,536
Either way, you had to be ready.

1233
01:38:36,619 --> 01:38:41,332
For years, I made sure all the hangers in
my closet were facing the same direction.

1234
01:38:52,176 --> 01:38:55,096
How many are auditioning
on Monday?

1235
01:38:59,434 --> 01:39:00,852
No one.

1236
01:39:01,436 --> 01:39:02,687
No one?

1237
01:39:04,772 --> 01:39:06,149
Maybe Martin.

1238
01:39:07,817 --> 01:39:11,779
He's never gotten along with gosia.
He would love to sit downstage for once.

1239
01:39:13,364 --> 01:39:14,699
Well...

1240
01:39:15,992 --> 01:39:17,743
He's still gonna have to audition.

1241
01:39:20,288 --> 01:39:21,581
Of course.

1242
01:39:22,331 --> 01:39:24,041
Have to follow the rules.

1243
01:39:26,794 --> 01:39:29,046
Aren't we being a bit formal,
Francesca?

1244
01:39:29,130 --> 01:39:31,549
From what I understand,
there's only one player, right?

1245
01:39:31,632 --> 01:39:33,593
No, maestro, there are two.

1246
01:40:36,656 --> 01:40:38,366
Well, it's unanimous.

1247
01:40:38,449 --> 01:40:40,368
Number two. Mm-hmm.

1248
01:40:41,285 --> 01:40:42,537
And we have a problem.

1249
01:40:42,620 --> 01:40:45,831
She's not officially been invited
to become a member of the orchestra.

1250
01:40:47,291 --> 01:40:50,169
Well, she wouldn't need to be
to solo for us.

1251
01:40:51,003 --> 01:40:55,466
I believe the criteria of the audition
was all section members?

1252
01:40:56,384 --> 01:40:58,386
- Then her audition gets thrown out.
- No.

1253
01:40:58,469 --> 01:41:01,973
Francesca, please ask Martin to come
back in so we can give him the news.

1254
01:41:02,056 --> 01:41:04,517
Wait. Gosia, let's talk.

1255
01:41:07,061 --> 01:41:09,605
Shit!

1256
01:41:09,689 --> 01:41:13,818
Whoo!

1257
01:41:15,319 --> 01:41:18,239
I'll confirm solo rehearsal dates
with her.

1258
01:41:18,322 --> 01:41:19,365
Thank you.

1259
01:41:20,408 --> 01:41:21,617
Have a seat.

1260
01:41:26,831 --> 01:41:28,916
I have made a decision

1261
01:41:29,000 --> 01:41:31,335
regarding Sebastian's replacement.

1262
01:41:33,004 --> 01:41:36,299
And I want you to know
it wasn't an easy one.

1263
01:41:38,259 --> 01:41:42,638
This position brings with it
enormous responsibility

1264
01:41:42,722 --> 01:41:45,600
and, my personal affection for you aside...

1265
01:41:45,683 --> 01:41:49,854
I will have to go with someone
more... more experienced.

1266
01:42:50,456 --> 01:42:53,793
Oh, leave me alone.
I don't have your paper!

1267
01:42:55,169 --> 01:42:56,462
I've told you before, I...

1268
01:42:57,755 --> 01:42:59,256
Oh, I'm sorry. Please come in.

1269
01:43:46,011 --> 01:43:47,346
Good! Good!

1270
01:43:47,430 --> 01:43:49,306
I think the contrast is...

1271
01:43:49,390 --> 01:43:51,434
- It's much better now, don't you think?
- Mmm.

1272
01:43:52,017 --> 01:43:53,769
How do you take your coffee?

1273
01:43:53,853 --> 01:43:55,646
Black. Strong.

1274
01:43:57,857 --> 01:43:59,442
Is all right if I play?

1275
01:43:59,525 --> 01:44:01,485
Mmm.
Oh, yes, of course, of course.

1276
01:44:50,576 --> 01:44:51,911
That's as far as I've gotten.

1277
01:44:53,037 --> 01:44:54,413
But it's good.

1278
01:44:55,122 --> 01:44:57,208
Um, this part here...

1279
01:45:01,587 --> 01:45:03,672
Maybe change a to b-flat?

1280
01:45:07,676 --> 01:45:09,553
That's better. I like that sound.

1281
01:45:11,806 --> 01:45:13,891
Come on. Take a break.

1282
01:45:13,974 --> 01:45:16,644
Okay

1283
01:45:29,156 --> 01:45:30,199
Sharon?

1284
01:45:33,577 --> 01:45:34,995
Hello.

1285
01:45:51,095 --> 01:45:52,471
Petra.

1286
01:46:18,622 --> 01:46:20,416
What are you doing in here?

1287
01:46:20,499 --> 01:46:22,877
I'm hiding from her.

1288
01:46:23,752 --> 01:46:25,004
Why?

1289
01:46:25,087 --> 01:46:30,676
Because she told me to put my things
in order, but they already are.

1290
01:46:34,179 --> 01:46:35,431
I can see that.

1291
01:46:36,724 --> 01:46:38,309
Come on.

1292
01:46:38,392 --> 01:46:40,227
They're all waiting for you.

1293
01:46:40,311 --> 01:46:44,106
I'm going to give
everyone a pencil.

1294
01:46:44,189 --> 01:46:46,609
All of them?
They can't all conduct, honey.

1295
01:46:46,692 --> 01:46:49,445
It's not a...
It's not a democracy.

1296
01:48:03,769 --> 01:48:05,688
Hey, that's good.

1297
01:48:05,771 --> 01:48:07,773
You happy?

1298
01:48:07,856 --> 01:48:10,317
I think the glissando's
working really well there.

1299
01:48:11,193 --> 01:48:14,363
How long were you acquainted
with miss Taylor?

1300
01:48:14,446 --> 01:48:18,367
Oh, I'd have to double-check
with my assistant,

1301
01:48:18,450 --> 01:48:22,162
but cumulatively speaking,
I'd say not more than a few months.

1302
01:48:22,246 --> 01:48:23,706
Mmm.

1303
01:48:23,789 --> 01:48:26,041
- Thank you for your time, maestro.
- Not at all.

1304
01:48:27,418 --> 01:48:29,795
This recording will exist
on a protected server

1305
01:48:29,878 --> 01:48:31,880
under attorney-client privilege
with Mr. Singer.

1306
01:48:31,964 --> 01:48:32,965
Great.

1307
01:48:33,048 --> 01:48:35,488
He will follow up with you
to help prepare for the deposition.

1308
01:48:39,179 --> 01:48:40,305
Deposition?

1309
01:48:41,390 --> 01:48:44,143
Yes. I assumed you were aware.

1310
01:48:44,768 --> 01:48:48,230
Mr. Singer's office said they'd been
coordinating with your assistant.

1311
01:48:48,772 --> 01:48:52,234
Francesca, you'd better get
your pretty little ass to work right now.

1312
01:48:54,403 --> 01:48:56,297
The only communication
we've received from Francesca

1313
01:48:56,321 --> 01:48:58,866
was an email to my assistant
in the middle of the night

1314
01:48:58,949 --> 01:49:00,389
tendering her immediate resignation,

1315
01:49:00,451 --> 01:49:03,996
stating she would be in contact
when she had more details to provide.

1316
01:49:04,913 --> 01:49:06,206
What kind of details?

1317
01:49:06,290 --> 01:49:07,958
A new address, I suppose.

1318
01:49:08,042 --> 01:49:09,960
In the meantime,
we've been trying all morning

1319
01:49:10,044 --> 01:49:12,671
to find someone suitable to assist you
on a temporary basis.

1320
01:49:12,755 --> 01:49:16,133
For now, perhaps your new assistant
conductor would be the right fit.

1321
01:49:16,216 --> 01:49:18,969
No. No. He's not available
till after the live five date.

1322
01:49:19,053 --> 01:49:20,512
Yes, I'm ready. Let's go.

1323
01:49:24,933 --> 01:49:26,852
I know how much you depended on her.

1324
01:49:26,935 --> 01:49:28,479
Two-faced little bitch.

1325
01:49:28,562 --> 01:49:29,855
Imagine her hurt, tar.

1326
01:49:29,938 --> 01:49:32,399
- Don't you dare try to defend her.
- God, slow down!

1327
01:49:32,483 --> 01:49:34,109
She'll come galumphing back.

1328
01:49:34,193 --> 01:49:36,073
- I've got a dumb phone like every robot.
- Tar!

1329
01:49:36,153 --> 01:49:38,489
How hard can it be to text all day?

1330
01:49:39,782 --> 01:49:42,326
Slow down! Or let me out!

1331
01:50:04,098 --> 01:50:05,265
Francesca!

1332
01:50:56,108 --> 01:50:58,652
- She scares me.
- You can't trust her.

1333
01:51:25,971 --> 01:51:28,599
Come. Come in. Come.

1334
01:53:08,282 --> 01:53:10,867
Sorry I'm late again.

1335
01:53:10,951 --> 01:53:12,286
Oh.

1336
01:53:17,958 --> 01:53:19,418
Do you live here?

1337
01:53:20,544 --> 01:53:22,045
Not normally, no.

1338
01:53:23,213 --> 01:53:25,716
Uh, make yourself at home.
I'm just gonna put something on.

1339
01:53:25,799 --> 01:53:26,883
Do you have a towel?

1340
01:53:29,678 --> 01:53:31,054
- Yes.
- Thank you.

1341
01:53:36,893 --> 01:53:38,395
I got caught in the rain.

1342
01:53:50,991 --> 01:53:53,243
There is small concert
with musician friends.

1343
01:53:53,327 --> 01:53:54,494
You should come.

1344
01:53:55,829 --> 01:53:57,164
Thanks, but I...

1345
01:53:57,831 --> 01:53:59,416
Really must get home.

1346
01:53:59,499 --> 01:54:00,792
You have child, yes?

1347
01:54:00,876 --> 01:54:02,336
Mm-hmm.

1348
01:54:02,419 --> 01:54:04,087
I will not do that.

1349
01:54:06,548 --> 01:54:08,258
Pets are better for some people.

1350
01:54:21,313 --> 01:54:23,315
Wh... oh. Sorry.

1351
01:54:23,398 --> 01:54:25,776
- Bye.
- Oh, yes! Goodbye, yes. Goodbye.

1352
01:54:26,777 --> 01:54:28,570
- Oh.
- Okay.

1353
01:54:35,369 --> 01:54:37,120
Oh, Olga!

1354
01:54:37,204 --> 01:54:38,205
Olga!

1355
01:54:46,296 --> 01:54:47,631
Olga?

1356
01:54:54,888 --> 01:54:56,223
Olga?

1357
01:55:25,168 --> 01:55:26,753
Hello?

1358
01:55:38,723 --> 01:55:40,183
Olga?

1359
01:55:59,077 --> 01:56:00,579
Olga?

1360
01:56:09,713 --> 01:56:13,216
Olga?

1361
01:56:58,762 --> 01:57:00,805
Why didn't you go to the police?

1362
01:57:00,889 --> 01:57:03,767
I fought, he ran. What's to tell?

1363
01:57:07,395 --> 01:57:09,814
Oh, god. I'm gonna get you
something for the pain.

1364
01:57:09,898 --> 01:57:12,776
- No, I don't need anything.
- No, I'm gonna get you something.

1365
01:57:36,466 --> 01:57:38,593
Lydia!

1366
01:57:41,846 --> 01:57:43,682
- Lydia!
- [Gasps}

1367
01:57:48,270 --> 01:57:49,604
what is it?

1368
01:57:52,274 --> 01:57:54,150
Hold my foot.

1369
01:58:02,492 --> 01:58:04,077
Is that better?

1370
01:58:04,160 --> 01:58:05,328
Yes.

1371
01:58:46,953 --> 01:58:48,413
Okay.

1372
01:58:49,080 --> 01:58:51,291
Let's, uh, shoo the elephant
from the room.

1373
01:58:52,292 --> 01:58:54,628
"What the hell happened to her face?"

1374
01:58:55,462 --> 01:58:58,006
"Did she, uh, schedule a nose and eye job

1375
01:58:58,089 --> 01:59:00,467
and bail before the surgeon
finished the other half?"

1376
01:59:06,139 --> 01:59:09,267
No, I was, uh... I was attacked.

1377
01:59:10,268 --> 01:59:11,645
Thank you.

1378
01:59:12,228 --> 01:59:14,022
I'm fine. Really.

1379
01:59:14,105 --> 01:59:15,649
Shoulda seen the other guy.

1380
01:59:15,732 --> 01:59:17,052
All right.

1381
02:00:01,945 --> 02:00:04,489
Ah! Don't! It burns.

1382
02:00:05,323 --> 02:00:07,033
Oh, you must see the doctor.

1383
02:00:07,534 --> 02:00:09,369
He's booked till next week.

1384
02:00:09,452 --> 02:00:11,996
I'll call them again
and tell them how much pain you're in...

1385
02:00:12,080 --> 02:00:14,165
No, no, let's just finish up here.

1386
02:00:16,543 --> 02:00:18,712
Overall, the balance feels right.

1387
02:00:18,795 --> 02:00:22,382
Other than a quick brushup,
we should concentrate on the elgar.

1388
02:00:23,299 --> 02:00:25,051
You're certain of that?

1389
02:00:25,135 --> 02:00:27,137
I think so. Yes.

1390
02:00:27,804 --> 02:00:29,556
We 're absolutely rock-solid there,

1391
02:00:29,639 --> 02:00:34,602
but I am going to try
to hold 'em back here.

1392
02:00:34,686 --> 02:00:38,314
They're just getting caught up
in the power of your glissando,

1393
02:00:38,398 --> 02:00:39,941
and they're trying to match it.

1394
02:00:40,024 --> 02:00:43,153
Um... probably it's...

1395
02:00:43,236 --> 02:00:45,613
Where were you attacked, maestro?

1396
02:00:45,697 --> 02:00:48,450
Oh... Doesn't matter.

1397
02:00:49,534 --> 02:00:50,534
Here.

1398
02:00:50,577 --> 02:00:53,079
Thank you.

1399
02:00:53,705 --> 02:00:55,165
There you are.

1400
02:00:56,332 --> 02:00:57,792
When did this fall happen?

1401
02:00:57,876 --> 02:01:00,378
Uh, it's all a blur.
Three, four days ago.

1402
02:01:01,504 --> 02:01:04,340
It's just my shoulder.
Yeah. It kinda burns.

1403
02:01:04,424 --> 02:01:06,551
Like I fell asleep by the pool.

1404
02:01:06,634 --> 02:01:10,805
Okay,
you can put your shirt back on.

1405
02:01:10,889 --> 02:01:12,223
You've damaged some nerves.

1406
02:01:12,307 --> 02:01:15,310
The burning sensation you're feeling
is called notalgia paresthetica.

1407
02:01:15,393 --> 02:01:16,644
Nostalgia?

1408
02:01:16,728 --> 02:01:18,605
Notalgia. No s.

1409
02:01:19,105 --> 02:01:20,523
Well, how do we treat it?

1410
02:01:20,607 --> 02:01:23,067
You don't. Eventually it goes away.

1411
02:01:23,151 --> 02:01:25,779
An adjustment might help.
You're somewhat crooked.

1412
02:02:15,036 --> 02:02:19,582
Oh, well. Then you must be
a negro product exploited by the Jews.

1413
02:02:21,751 --> 02:02:24,629
Now let's turn our gaze
back to the piano bench up there,

1414
02:02:24,712 --> 02:02:27,048
to a superhot young woman!

1415
02:02:28,174 --> 02:02:29,968
That's... that was very good.

1416
02:02:30,051 --> 02:02:35,765
Now, you could masturbate,
but what are you actually doing to me .7

1417
02:02:41,521 --> 02:02:43,982
- Britta.
- H/; Hi. Have you seen it?

1418
02:02:44,065 --> 02:02:45,942
Yes, yes. I've just seen it.

1419
02:02:46,025 --> 02:02:47,735
It's gathering this afternoon.

1420
02:02:49,237 --> 02:02:51,114
- This afternoon?
- Ls that a problem?

1421
02:02:51,197 --> 02:02:53,074
No, no, it's no problem.

1422
02:03:27,108 --> 02:03:32,447
First of all, that class was conducted
in a tech-free zone.

1423
02:03:32,530 --> 02:03:38,119
And second, whoever violated that rule
edited what we've all seen

1424
02:03:38,202 --> 02:03:41,289
to create linguistic traps
to completely redefine my words.

1425
02:03:41,372 --> 02:03:43,458
Look at the reverse shots
on the students.

1426
02:03:43,541 --> 02:03:46,794
There's no way that was done in real time.
It's a hatchetjob.

1427
02:03:46,878 --> 02:03:49,005
I'm sure that's true, Lydia.

1428
02:03:49,088 --> 02:03:52,634
And were it just this video,
we would not be sitting here.

1429
02:03:52,717 --> 02:03:55,470
Unfortunately, it's linked to
an article in the New York post

1430
02:03:55,553 --> 02:03:57,055
regarding krista Taylor's suicide,

1431
02:03:57,138 --> 02:04:01,768
which alludes to other accordion fellows
they claim to have interviewed.

1432
02:04:01,851 --> 02:04:04,187
Laura, can you tell us
about your conversations?

1433
02:04:04,270 --> 02:04:05,355
We haven't had any.

1434
02:04:05,438 --> 02:04:06,689
Obviously, we gave no response

1435
02:04:06,773 --> 02:04:08,900
as we first wanted to meet
to discuss strategy.

1436
02:04:08,983 --> 02:04:09,817
Mm-hmm.

1437
02:04:09,901 --> 02:04:11,653
- Here's the article.
- Thank you, Laura.

1438
02:04:16,574 --> 02:04:19,869
"Enticed and groomed multiple young women

1439
02:04:19,953 --> 02:04:22,789
to engage in sex acts
for professional favors.

1440
02:04:22,872 --> 02:04:25,416
Blocked opportunities
to those who didn't comply."

1441
02:04:25,500 --> 02:04:27,752
This is total fiction.

1442
02:04:27,835 --> 02:04:30,421
And the post
is a how-de-do scandal rag.

1443
02:04:30,505 --> 02:04:32,966
No serious person reads it.

1444
02:04:36,010 --> 02:04:38,763
And so far as krista Taylor goes,

1445
02:04:40,056 --> 02:04:41,265
she was disturbed.

1446
02:04:41,349 --> 02:04:43,184
I mean, she fixated on me.

1447
02:04:43,267 --> 02:04:45,103
In what way?

1448
02:04:45,186 --> 02:04:48,481
She sent me weird gifts.
She trolled me online.

1449
02:04:48,564 --> 02:04:51,401
- She tried to send me signals.
- Well, what kind of signals?

1450
02:04:51,484 --> 02:04:54,612
She vandalized my Wikipedia page
to say she was my muse.

1451
02:04:54,696 --> 02:04:56,990
I mean, that's easily checked, right?

1452
02:04:57,073 --> 02:05:00,410
And did you ever report this
or file a complaint?

1453
02:05:03,746 --> 02:05:06,541
No. And, look,
I probably should have.

1454
02:05:06,624 --> 02:05:08,918
I... I felt sorry for her.

1455
02:05:09,002 --> 02:05:12,505
- Is this something you shared with Sharon?
- No. I didn't wanna burden her with it.

1456
02:05:12,588 --> 02:05:14,716
- Don't you think you should have?
- Yes! Yes.

1457
02:05:14,799 --> 02:05:16,467
Well, what do you advise?

1458
02:05:16,551 --> 02:05:18,928
Well, for now, it hasn't gotten
all that much traction.

1459
02:05:19,012 --> 02:05:21,848
None of the trades have linked to it
or called for comment.

1460
02:05:21,931 --> 02:05:24,011
- So I say, let's see what happens.
- Mm-hmm.

1461
02:05:25,143 --> 02:05:27,895
We wanted to give you
as much warning as possible, Lydia,

1462
02:05:28,855 --> 02:05:30,857
before this Friday's donor meeting.

1463
02:05:30,940 --> 02:05:32,817
Well, unfortunately,
I won't be there.

1464
02:05:32,900 --> 02:05:35,361
Well, I very much advise that you are.

1465
02:05:35,445 --> 02:05:39,532
I have the book launch in New York
and, apparently, a deposition.

1466
02:05:40,992 --> 02:05:43,828
Well, we'll fill you in
upon your return then.

1467
02:05:46,581 --> 02:05:48,332
Enjoy your weekend.

1468
02:05:50,418 --> 02:05:52,086
Starving!

1469
02:05:52,712 --> 02:05:54,589
Finished my thing today.

1470
02:05:54,672 --> 02:05:57,175
Congratulations!
We should go out and celebrate!

1471
02:05:57,258 --> 02:05:58,885
I can't. I gotta pack.

1472
02:05:59,385 --> 02:06:00,928
- Hi!
- Hi, Lydia.

1473
02:06:06,601 --> 02:06:07,977
Sharon?

1474
02:06:08,603 --> 02:06:09,896
Yeah?

1475
02:06:10,772 --> 02:06:12,648
You seen my performance score?

1476
02:06:12,732 --> 02:06:15,109
No. Why?
Isn't it with the other ones?

1477
02:06:15,193 --> 02:06:16,611
No. No, it's not.

1478
02:06:17,236 --> 02:06:19,405
Are you sure it's not in my office?

1479
02:06:22,325 --> 02:06:24,744
Yeah, what about the orchestra library?

1480
02:06:26,496 --> 02:06:28,664
Yeah, can you check again, please?

1481
02:06:31,876 --> 02:06:33,795
I don't know! Yes, exactly.

1482
02:06:51,354 --> 02:06:52,730
Lydia.

1483
02:06:56,192 --> 02:06:57,527
Yes.

1484
02:06:57,610 --> 02:06:59,445
When will you be back?

1485
02:07:00,446 --> 02:07:01,864
The day after tomorrow.

1486
02:07:02,824 --> 02:07:04,575
Will you promise?

1487
02:07:04,659 --> 02:07:06,285
Yes, I promise.

1488
02:07:17,255 --> 02:07:19,048
- Good night.
- Good night.

1489
02:07:34,063 --> 02:07:36,190
Thanks. Do you have any bottles?

1490
02:07:36,274 --> 02:07:37,316
Of course.

1491
02:07:38,818 --> 02:07:41,112
Do you need anything else
before I close the cabin door?

1492
02:07:41,195 --> 02:07:43,614
Uh, yes.
We're waiting on one more.

1493
02:07:50,746 --> 02:07:53,833
To all my questions
pertaining to your communications

1494
02:07:53,916 --> 02:07:56,502
with krista Taylor and others,

1495
02:07:57,253 --> 02:08:00,882
your answers have always been,
"I don't know"

1496
02:08:00,965 --> 02:08:03,551
or "I don't remember."

1497
02:08:06,554 --> 02:08:09,640
Is there anything I could show you
that might help refresh your recollection?

1498
02:08:10,808 --> 02:08:16,063
Any documents, such as emails from you
or your personal assistant, miss lentini,

1499
02:08:16,147 --> 02:08:19,609
that might help you recall
what you did and didn't say?

1500
02:08:23,946 --> 02:08:25,866
Eliot kaplan's office.

1501
02:08:26,657 --> 02:08:28,034
He'll have to return...

1502
02:08:28,117 --> 02:08:29,911
I guess you heard by now.

1503
02:08:29,994 --> 02:08:32,538
Bryant park bumped you to 53rd street.

1504
02:08:36,125 --> 02:08:38,669
This is the kaplan fund's
prepared statement.

1505
02:08:41,464 --> 02:08:44,217
I'm sorry to say this is likely
the last time we'll see each other.

1506
02:08:44,300 --> 02:08:46,510
Well, now I can buy my own plane tickets.

1507
02:08:46,594 --> 02:08:50,973
And you can bother someone else to try
and teach you to crawl to the podium.

1508
02:09:09,200 --> 02:09:10,785
Is there a back entrance?

1509
02:09:11,827 --> 02:09:15,873
"Indeed, the common metaphors
used to explain music

1510
02:09:15,957 --> 02:09:20,336
are based on the idea
that music is a language,

1511
02:09:20,419 --> 02:09:22,296
albeit a secret one.

1512
02:09:23,673 --> 02:09:27,677
And in this way, holy and unknowable.

1513
02:09:29,804 --> 02:09:32,056
These joyful noises we make

1514
02:09:32,139 --> 02:09:37,228
being the closest thing any of us
might ever experience to the divine,

1515
02:09:38,771 --> 02:09:43,109
yet something born
by the mere act of moving air.

1516
02:09:45,820 --> 02:09:48,114
No different than birdsong."

1517
02:09:57,290 --> 02:09:59,750
So, meet downstairs
in half an hour for dinner?

1518
02:09:59,834 --> 02:10:02,461
Thank you, but I am jet-lagged.
I go to sleep now.

1519
02:10:02,545 --> 02:10:03,921
Yeah, me too. I'll...

1520
02:10:04,714 --> 02:10:06,382
Probably do the same.

1521
02:11:05,316 --> 02:11:06,901
Yes, hello.

1522
02:11:06,984 --> 02:11:09,028
Yes, there's no water in my room.

1523
02:11:09,779 --> 02:11:11,364
Yes, I've checked the minibar.

1524
02:11:12,031 --> 02:11:14,617
How long would it take
to get a bottle of water?

1525
02:11:14,700 --> 02:11:16,410
Oh, don't worry. I'll just come down.

1526
02:11:20,164 --> 02:11:21,707
Lobby, please.

1527
02:11:48,567 --> 02:11:50,861
Oh, Jesus!

1528
02:12:03,666 --> 02:12:05,668
It was Britta.

1529
02:12:07,086 --> 02:12:08,421
Right?

1530
02:12:09,130 --> 02:12:13,634
I mean, that is how you heard about
these millennial robots trading in lies.

1531
02:12:13,717 --> 02:12:16,429
I couldn't care less
about the Juilliard thing.

1532
02:12:16,512 --> 02:12:18,431
Too much time on her hands.

1533
02:12:18,514 --> 02:12:21,434
She's fringe. The worst kind.

1534
02:12:22,351 --> 02:12:26,397
Every time I walk out of this house,
she's in your ear with intrigue.

1535
02:12:26,480 --> 02:12:30,234
Or she's asking me about
some other piece of fringe,

1536
02:12:30,317 --> 02:12:31,694
like Samantha hankey.

1537
02:12:31,777 --> 02:12:34,697
God, a nobody
who has nothing better to do

1538
02:12:34,780 --> 02:12:38,325
than drop my name at lunch
and imply things.

1539
02:12:39,076 --> 02:12:40,744
I feel sorry for you.

1540
02:12:40,828 --> 02:12:42,037
Oh, save it.

1541
02:12:43,789 --> 02:12:45,708
I tried calling you last night.

1542
02:12:48,127 --> 02:12:49,753
Did you have fun with her?

1543
02:12:50,838 --> 02:12:53,841
My back is killing me.

1544
02:12:53,924 --> 02:12:57,761
Francesca left, and I simply needed
someone to carry my bags.

1545
02:12:57,845 --> 02:13:01,932
I mean, who was I supposed to ask
to go with me? Mmm, knut?

1546
02:13:03,017 --> 02:13:04,185
Jesus fucking...

1547
02:13:04,268 --> 02:13:06,687
There are many things
I accept about you.

1548
02:13:07,855 --> 02:13:11,400
And in the end, I'm sure
I could get over something like this.

1549
02:13:12,276 --> 02:13:15,070
But that's not
what we're talking about, is it?

1550
02:13:17,531 --> 02:13:22,119
These accusations from the parents
of the girl who suicided?

1551
02:13:27,291 --> 02:13:29,710
You honestly believe
what they're saying?

1552
02:13:34,089 --> 02:13:35,090
They're lies.

1553
02:13:37,718 --> 02:13:41,430
Do you understand what it was like
to walk into my sectional yesterday

1554
02:13:41,514 --> 02:13:44,433
and to see everybody
whispering about me?

1555
02:13:44,517 --> 02:13:48,854
It's got nothing to do with
what they're accusing you of.

1556
02:13:48,938 --> 02:13:54,360
It's a simple matter of not warning me
that our family is in danger.

1557
02:13:55,319 --> 02:13:57,530
And what good would that have done?

1558
02:13:57,613 --> 02:14:00,449
I mean, what could you possibly do
to make things better?

1559
02:14:02,910 --> 02:14:04,912
Because I deserve that.

1560
02:14:05,496 --> 02:14:07,289
Those are the rules.

1561
02:14:08,457 --> 02:14:13,212
You are to ask for my fucking counsel
the way you always have.

1562
02:14:13,295 --> 02:14:15,172
The way you did
when you first arrived here

1563
02:14:15,256 --> 02:14:17,883
as a guest conductor looking
for a permanent position.

1564
02:14:17,967 --> 02:14:20,427
You asked me what were the politics,

1565
02:14:20,511 --> 02:14:23,222
what were the moves,
how could we swing it.

1566
02:14:26,016 --> 02:14:27,726
Of course,

1567
02:14:27,810 --> 02:14:30,479
these conversations
took place in another bed.

1568
02:14:31,480 --> 02:14:36,443
Or rather, the couch of that
horrible place you still can't let go of.

1569
02:14:36,527 --> 02:14:38,779
Old sorrow blows in.

1570
02:14:41,156 --> 02:14:44,994
How cruel of you to define
our relationship as transactional.

1571
02:14:48,664 --> 02:14:51,709
There's only one relationship
you've ever had that wasn't.

1572
02:14:52,793 --> 02:14:55,087
And she is sleeping
in the room next door.

1573
02:14:55,838 --> 02:14:58,591
Apparently, this hasn't even
crossed your mind.

1574
02:17:11,557 --> 02:17:12,641
Petra!

1575
02:17:16,019 --> 02:17:17,563
Come here, darling!

1576
02:17:20,149 --> 02:17:21,525
- It was good.
- Was it?

1577
02:17:21,608 --> 02:17:23,318
- Yeah.
- You wanna go to the park?

1578
02:17:24,737 --> 02:17:26,864
Don't do this.
Please, don't do this.

1579
02:17:26,947 --> 02:17:28,073
Please don't.

1580
02:17:54,641 --> 02:17:57,519
Hello. I am Anna franzen.

1581
02:17:57,603 --> 02:17:59,980
This is my late mother's apartment.

1582
02:18:01,857 --> 02:18:04,735
Oh, yeah, I'm so sorry about your mother.

1583
02:18:04,818 --> 02:18:05,986
Thank you.

1584
02:18:07,154 --> 02:18:09,281
How's your sister doing?

1585
02:18:09,364 --> 02:18:12,159
Eleanor lives now
in a facility in neukolln.

1586
02:18:12,701 --> 02:18:14,411
I'm sorry to trouble you,

1587
02:18:14,495 --> 02:18:17,790
but my husband and I are selling the place

1588
02:18:17,873 --> 02:18:21,126
and couldn't help hearing the music.

1589
02:18:23,253 --> 02:18:25,047
I'm glad you enjoyed it.

1590
02:18:25,130 --> 02:18:28,342
We were wondering
if there are specific hours you rehearse,

1591
02:18:28,425 --> 02:18:30,969
so we can schedule showings around them.

1592
02:18:32,262 --> 02:18:34,556
We don't want to scare
potential buyers off

1593
02:18:35,098 --> 02:18:36,767
with all the noise.

1594
02:18:38,352 --> 02:18:40,062
No, no, no.

1595
02:18:43,398 --> 02:18:45,651
No, we wouldn't want that.

1596
02:18:58,914 --> 02:19:01,959
J” apartment for sale j”

1597
02:19:02,042 --> 02:19:05,045
J” apartment for sale j”

1598
02:19:05,128 --> 02:19:07,798
j” your mother's buried deep j”

1599
02:19:07,881 --> 02:19:13,428
j” and now you're gonna keep
her apartment for sale j”

1600
02:19:13,512 --> 02:19:15,556
j” your sister's in jail j”

1601
02:19:15,639 --> 02:19:18,809
j” you put your sister in jail j”

1602
02:19:18,892 --> 02:19:21,103
j” you're all going to hell j”

1603
02:19:21,186 --> 02:19:24,022
j” your apartment's for sale j”

1604
02:21:19,429 --> 02:21:21,598
Okay.

1605
02:21:21,682 --> 02:21:23,058
Gimme some eyes.

1606
02:21:28,188 --> 02:21:29,606
Come on. Gimme some eyes!

1607
02:21:34,736 --> 02:21:36,071
Lydia.

1608
02:21:36,613 --> 02:21:38,782
This is my score.

1609
02:21:39,533 --> 02:21:40,826
Lydia, you're confused.

1610
02:21:40,909 --> 02:21:43,745
It's my score!

1611
02:21:43,829 --> 02:21:46,999
You fucking little nothing!

1612
02:21:55,549 --> 02:21:56,550
I'm fine.

1613
02:22:26,204 --> 02:22:27,914
You sign cami voucher.

1614
02:22:49,561 --> 02:22:52,189
Good afternoon. Cami.

1615
02:22:53,356 --> 02:22:54,858
Hold on.

1616
02:22:56,151 --> 02:22:58,629
Normally, I'd think Lisa rich
in our booking department

1617
02:22:58,653 --> 02:23:00,197
would be a great fit for you,

1618
02:23:00,280 --> 02:23:02,616
but she's just got too much on her plate.

1619
02:23:02,699 --> 02:23:06,119
So, I'd like to team you with Jake here.

1620
02:23:06,203 --> 02:23:09,998
Jake, do you wanna show Lydia
what you've prepared for her?

1621
02:23:10,082 --> 02:23:11,166
Well,

1622
02:23:12,542 --> 02:23:14,753
right now, it's a reset.

1623
02:23:14,836 --> 02:23:16,630
What we're after is less, not more.

1624
02:23:16,713 --> 02:23:19,966
We wanna be selective
and rebuild this from the ground up.

1625
02:23:20,050 --> 02:23:21,760
That means we need a new story.

1626
02:23:26,515 --> 02:23:28,183
Just here.

1627
02:23:28,266 --> 02:23:29,559
Here, thank you.

1628
02:23:30,352 --> 02:23:32,896
Uh, make it 40. Thank you.

1629
02:25:07,324 --> 02:25:09,075
Didn 'i' you feel triumphant?

1630
02:25:12,871 --> 02:25:16,708
Now we can really understand
what the meaning of music is.

1631
02:25:16,791 --> 02:25:20,712
It's the way it makes you feel
when you hear it.

1632
02:25:21,338 --> 02:25:23,506
Finally, we've taken that last giant step.

1633
02:25:23,590 --> 02:25:26,593
And we 're there.
We know what music means now.

1634
02:25:26,676 --> 02:25:30,597
And we don't have to know a lot of stuff
about ”sharps " and "flats " and "chords ”

1635
02:25:30,680 --> 02:25:34,184
and all that business
in order to understand music,

1636
02:25:34,267 --> 02:25:36,228
ifit tells us something.

1637
02:25:36,895 --> 02:25:40,315
And the most wonderful thing of all
is that there is no limit

1638
02:25:40,398 --> 02:25:44,444
to the dirferent kinds of feelings
music can make you have.

1639
02:25:44,527 --> 02:25:48,365
And some of those feelings
are so special and so deep

1640
02:25:48,448 --> 02:25:51,034
that they can't even
be described in words.

1641
02:25:51,117 --> 02:25:53,286
You see, we can't always name
the things we feel

1642
02:25:53,370 --> 02:25:54,371
sometimes we can.

1643
02:25:54,454 --> 02:25:58,291
We can say we feel joy, pleasure,
peacefulness, whatever.

1644
02:25:58,375 --> 02:25:59,918
Love, hate.

1645
02:26:00,001 --> 02:26:02,295
But every once in a while,

1646
02:26:02,379 --> 02:26:06,800
we have feelings that are so deep and
so special that we have no words for them.

1647
02:26:06,883 --> 02:26:09,844
And that's where music is so marvelous.

1648
02:26:09,928 --> 02:26:12,264
Because music names them for us,

1649
02:26:12,347 --> 02:26:15,058
only in notes instead of in words.

1650
02:26:15,141 --> 02:26:16,810
It's all in the way music moves.

1651
02:26:16,893 --> 02:26:19,437
You must ne ver forget
that music is mo vement,

1652
02:26:19,521 --> 02:26:20,897
always going some where,

1653
02:26:20,981 --> 02:26:26,027
shifting and changing and flo wrng
from one note to another.

1654
02:26:26,111 --> 02:26:30,782
And that movement can tell us more about
the way we feel than a million words can.

1655
02:26:30,865 --> 02:26:33,243
And here we 're going to play you a...

1656
02:26:39,749 --> 02:26:41,293
Oh.

1657
02:26:47,090 --> 02:26:48,091
Tony.

1658
02:26:49,968 --> 02:26:52,721
Oh. Hi, Linda.

1659
02:26:52,804 --> 02:26:55,056
Sorry. Lydia.

1660
02:26:56,433 --> 02:26:58,101
Ma said you'd be over.

1661
02:26:58,810 --> 02:27:00,353
You must be hidin' out.

1662
02:27:02,022 --> 02:27:03,815
Why would I be hiding out?

1663
02:27:04,482 --> 02:27:06,067
Beats the hell out of me.

1664
02:27:06,776 --> 02:27:08,778
None of my business, anyhow.

1665
02:27:10,238 --> 02:27:12,449
Lotta loose ends,
you gotta admit.

1666
02:27:14,284 --> 02:27:15,744
What do you mean?

1667
02:27:15,827 --> 02:27:17,954
Well, like I said,
it ain't my business.

1668
02:27:19,664 --> 02:27:23,043
But you don't seem to know where the hell
you came from or where you're going.

1669
02:28:15,428 --> 02:28:16,971
May I come inside?

1670
02:28:18,723 --> 02:28:19,724
Thank you.

1671
02:28:20,809 --> 02:28:21,810
Thank you.

1672
02:28:32,654 --> 02:28:33,988
I'm so sorry.

1673
02:28:34,072 --> 02:28:35,323
We just wanted to confirm

1674
02:28:35,407 --> 02:28:39,244
that the composer was, in fact, not flying
in from Osaka to attend the concert.

1675
02:28:39,994 --> 02:28:44,624
I must tell you that I looked
in the music libraries, uh, for her score,

1676
02:28:44,707 --> 02:28:47,043
but I... I couldn't find anything.

1677
02:28:47,127 --> 02:28:48,628
This just arrived.

1678
02:28:48,711 --> 02:28:50,755
Oh! That's great. Thank you.

1679
02:28:53,091 --> 02:28:55,093
Shirley and cirio will be most happy

1680
02:28:55,176 --> 02:28:57,303
to show you the sights
of our beautiful country.

1681
02:28:57,387 --> 02:28:59,264
Thank you! Thank you so much.

1682
02:28:59,347 --> 02:29:00,807
Oh, goodness.

1683
02:29:01,474 --> 02:29:02,892
Thank you.

1684
02:29:34,424 --> 02:29:37,719
Maybe we could stop somewhere
and take a swim.

1685
02:29:38,470 --> 02:29:42,348
Yeah, at the waterfall.
But not in the river.

1686
02:29:42,432 --> 02:29:44,851
Why? Is there something
wrong with the water?

1687
02:29:44,934 --> 02:29:47,228
No. There are crocodiles.

1688
02:29:49,814 --> 02:29:52,150
I didn't think they'd be this far inland.

1689
02:29:52,233 --> 02:29:54,986
They escaped
from a Marlon Brando movie.

1690
02:29:55,069 --> 02:29:56,321
Wow.

1691
02:29:56,946 --> 02:29:58,907
That was a long time ago.

1692
02:29:59,741 --> 02:30:01,284
They survive.

1693
02:30:36,069 --> 02:30:37,111
Ladyllady!

1694
02:30:40,406 --> 02:30:42,659
Here is prescription. Ten dollars.

1695
02:30:42,742 --> 02:30:43,952
Thank you.

1696
02:30:44,994 --> 02:30:49,040
Uh, is there somewhere
around here... thank you.

1697
02:30:49,123 --> 02:30:51,084
Where I could get a massage?

1698
02:30:51,167 --> 02:30:54,420
Was hoping it might help me
with this jet lag.

1699
02:30:57,882 --> 02:31:01,678
Yes. There is the very nice place I know.

1700
02:31:01,761 --> 02:31:02,929
Thank you.

1701
02:31:16,776 --> 02:31:17,986
Thank you.

1702
02:31:18,069 --> 02:31:19,821
Please step over to the fishbowl.

1703
02:31:19,904 --> 02:31:21,656
The... the fishbowl?

1704
02:31:21,739 --> 02:31:23,199
Yes, over there.

1705
02:31:29,038 --> 02:31:32,375
Um, I'm sorry. I'm confused.
How does this... how does it work?

1706
02:31:33,459 --> 02:31:35,336
You just pick a number here.

1707
02:31:37,463 --> 02:31:39,048
I pick a number?

1708
02:31:39,132 --> 02:31:40,341
Yes.

1709
02:31:52,270 --> 02:31:53,521
Number five?

1710
02:32:37,440 --> 02:32:38,983
Good morning.

1711
02:32:39,067 --> 02:32:40,193
Good morning.

1712
02:32:40,276 --> 02:32:41,736
Now, before we begin,

1713
02:32:41,819 --> 02:32:46,532
let's talk a bit about
the composer's intent with this piece

1714
02:32:48,076 --> 02:32:50,036
and what she might be after.

1715
02:33:09,055 --> 02:33:10,223
Five minutes.

1716
02:33:42,547 --> 02:33:44,424
Thank you.

1717
02:34:08,573 --> 02:34:11,159
Sisters and brothers of the fifth fleet,

1718
02:34:11,242 --> 02:34:12,410
it's time.

1719
02:34:12,493 --> 02:34:14,996
I'll keep my fare well brief

1720
02:34:15,079 --> 02:34:16,622
never was much with words.

1721
02:34:17,707 --> 02:34:21,085
Once you board this ship,
there's no turning back.

1722
02:34:21,919 --> 02:34:23,796
The next ground your feet touch

1723
02:34:23,880 --> 02:34:26,215
will be that of the new world.

1724
02:34:28,676 --> 02:34:30,595
If an y of you ha ve lost your nerve,

1725
02:34:30,678 --> 02:34:34,265
then step away now
and let no one judge you.